Rose, I'm glad that you are in a safer place, although it is sad that you have had to lose touch with your loved ones.
I hope that you are granted asylum. I presume that you are not in the UK if you don't speak the local language but if you are in any EU country, you should at least be safe from being sent directly back to Saudi Arabia, where your life would obviously be in danger.
If you arrived in Europe via an intermediate country such as Thailand, make sure that the authorities where you live now know that sending you back to the intermediate country would put you at risk of being sent back to Saudi Arabia and probable death.
We are all praying for you.
Love,
Mary