Feeling like I don't want to have to crossdress to feel femme. I don't want to have to put on "all the stuff". But, I do want a more female body. If I could have a slim, trim body, slightly wide hips, slightly protruding breasts, no body hair. Remove my beard. No hint of masculine musculature or male fat distribution. I think I'd be happy. I could be femme or toss on jeans and a t-shirt if I needed to be in guy mode.
I think that puts me on the spectrum closer to TS than CDer. Yes, I am not a CDer. I am not a man who likes to dress up once in awhile. There is an inner expression of female that comes to the forefront. Once I dress up, and I can reflect, she feels good. She is relaxed. She feels natural. She fits in like he never has. At those moments, he feels false and contrived, a persona built up to protect myself in this world. The trick is, to move more femme without freaking out over it.