I've been secretly on and off wearing lingerie since a teen. Alway felt a sting connection to liking feminum things. Have thought about castration for a long time also as high testosterone wastes so much time on sexual thoughts. Seven years ago I tried T blocker for 2.5 months and loved how I felt without T in my system, just a nice calm feeling. I knew someday I needed to do it again and for a longer time. Fast forward, devorsed 5 years ago and kids grown up and with medical event that paralyzed me from the waste down so nothing works anymore and just in the way, it's time to do something about how I really am inside. I'm now a week in on T blockers and estradot patches. Can't wait to see how I feel with no T and higher estrogen.
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