Hi moni,
Thank you for sharing with me. It could be that something is going on, but mom and I are pretty close and we spend too much time together that I should know. We all have issues and I guess that could be something, but we generally spend most of the day together that she kind of knows everything and I know some too. It is all just weird, but I am too dense at times to really see things and we have always had some sort of issue, but I always felt it was normal because all families have issues to some degrees. Things can't be happy perfect all the time. It could just be that mom is sick of time spending with me because we have spent too much. It might just be that a little separation time would be good. Either way, I no longer feel comfortable sharing transgender stuff with her and things just seem to get rather tight suddenly if things are not going well. Things are just different now. I also don't even want to think about aunt/cousins right now since I feel that if my mom can say those things then they would easily say more. I still feel confused about it all. I wish I was better placed financially at this point to just seek out some independence with out dependence, but I do not have that right now. Transitioning has been really tough that I have not been able to invest that much out time as much as I should have,but I feel that my transition is going along really well. It has all just been slow. If there is anything it would have to be something like january or maybe February but then again taxes come in and there is some debt ( I guess we all have debts! ). I have been visiting my usually transgender support group, but I am seeing if I can find another group to add in. I don't share my issues there, but it is nice to see other TG girls and learning about TG issues. I am still focused on my schooling and seeing where that will take me. If anything is going to take my places it should be that. Though I don't expect much either since it isn't like a big profession. I just need to find a little Independence and I think life will be better. Thank you so much for sharing it all helps
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