I started out, as far as I'm aware, as a normal "girl". Developed early, including breasts and period. I was using pads and a bra long before anyone else was. However, my periods were never regular, even as a thin pre-teen and teenager. I started to skip periods entirely when I was 17, and that was when I started gaining weight too. When I was 19, I'd go three months without a period sometimes. I also started to grow facial hair at this time. By age 21, I had a full beard that I needed to shave daily. When I was 26-27, I stopped skipping periods, and instead had my period for an entire year. One December I started to spot daily, which evolved into heavy bleeding all the time. I was put on birth control (the Depo shot), which made it maybe a tad lighter, but did NOT stop the bleeding. I was tested for cancer, and was negative. I was given an ultrasound, that showed ovaries and a uterus, but not much wrong. I was begging for a hysterectomy, but constantly denied on the premise of, "You'll want kids someday", despite me adamantly saying I did not want children, that I'm on medicine that I cannot get off of that would hurt a fetus, and that I probably wasn't fertile anyway...I hated my uterus. Even now that we've gotten the bleeding under control (with a combination of a hormonal IUD and a pill called Norethindrone), I still hate it. I still want it out.
Something is very, very wrong. It doesn't seem quite like PCOS and doesn't seem quite intersex...and yet, there's something about that thought of being intersex that I find extremely comforting. Something so right about it...but maybe that's just because I'm trans? I tried to bring this up to my doctor, but was ignored...
