I have been dragging my feet a bit getting this new blog started. As stated in the title, I want to be a lot more of a positive person, and frankly, the new year is always a bit of a downer for me. But here I am! I am a 54 year old transgender woman who has been in therapy since 2021, and have only been working on the internal parts of transitioning. I not only denied my identity to the world, but from myself as well, even at times falling into the trap of not being a very nice person at times to reinforce to myself and those around me that I was a man. I am glad to have shed that need.
I came out to my wife right at a year ago, and a rocky relationship suddenly became like a scene out of and Indiana Jones movie, but I am finally able to say that I have found a side passage to scoot down and am perfectly fine with however that relationship may or may not work out. Mostly because I finally found acceptance for myself. That was o e of the very first bits of advice given to me when I started my first blog, and I had no clue what that really meant, let alone how to achieve it. But here I am.
My first appointment with an endo to start HRT is next Tuesday. Excited is a loaded word in this instance, but I am. I know this whole journey means a new Rubicon almost weekly, but this one is one that will start to push me out of the door.
There are so many people here who have been inspirations as well as sources of envy, and to everyone I say welcome back, I am very glad to see you all. And like Sara, I have a goal to be one of the cool kids.
I know over the last few months my posts have dwindled to almost nothing, feeling, and it has been pointed out to me several times is wrong thinking, that I had nothing to add. Well no longer.
Love and hugs
Positively,
Allison