Hello my name is Wendi

[Wendi]

Hello my name is Wendi and I'm MTF.

I've been monitoring the forum for quite some time and this is a fantastic forum so I decided to register.

The information and experience sharing is awesome.

I'm 61 years young and have been struggling with gender identity since I was in grade school. I would wear my mother's undergarments as often as I could always hiding myself for fear of being discovered.

I had wished that I was born as a female but I resigned myself to the fact that I wasn't and that there was nothing I could do about it. It was depressed thinking about it. I'd go on feeling like this on and off. I would go to the store and buy women's clothes as I felt so at ease when wearing them. As from what I have been reading I did what most do and ended up purging often. This cycle continued throughout my teens and even up to last year. I had talked about being a crossdresser and wanting to be female to her in the past but she was so put off by it that I stopped dressing and didn't discuss it for years until the urge got unbearable and I couldn't take it any more.

This past July I purchased more clothing and wore them. My wife obviously saw me dressed and we discussed my feelings again. I was really delighted when she saw how enthused I was talking about it that she and I went out and purchased a wardrobe for me. I've been out since July as Wendi just dressing as my old male persona occasionally so I wouldn't make it hard for my wife. My family including our 2 children know as does my wife's family.

Just two weeks ago I started HRT and I'm feeling great.

I'm really glad to be here and I look forward to learning as much as I can and sharing my experiences (as little as there is at this point) on my journey as Wendi.

[debrahelen]

Welcome Wendi,
  Your story is a familiar one to many of us.  Enjoy your journey - so pleased that your wife is supportive.
Deb

[Northern Star Girl]

@Wendi
Dear Wendi:
    I am happy to see that you have joined Susan's Place and that you have submitted your first posting here on the Forums.
    As you post here on the forums you will be able to exchange thoughts and comments with others that are experiencing many of the same things that you are.

    This is the right place for you to be to find out what others may have to say that may have been in your circumstances and with your questions and concerns.
    There are a lot of members here that will be able to identify with your situation as you continue to feel free to share it.

    I also want to warmly WELCOME you to Susan's Place. 
You will find this a safe and friendly place to share with others and to read about others similar trials, tribulations, and successes.

    As you are certainly aware you can share with others and involve yourself with some give and take with other like-minded members.  When frustrated or if you have successes you can share it here if you wish and receive support from others and offer support to others. ....
     ***There is a very good chance that you might find that you will make some new like-minded friends here. 

    Please come in and continue to be involved at your own pace.
   
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Again, Welcome to Susan's Place.
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[Zoey421]

Hi Wendi, what a great story to read. I'm am impressed that you have a personal shopper, your wife. Congratulations on being accepted by your family and, more importantly, that you have accepted yourself and live your true identity.

Susan's Place is a great forum and I have met many supportive people. I hope you find the same.

Hugs Zoey xoxo

[KimOct]

Hi Wendi - YAY !!!! Congratulations on beginning to live as your authentic self.  There are so many people on forums such as this that spend years reading - thinking - wishing but for various reasons do not take the plunge.  It is scary - it takes courage and of course there are the rationalizations ( I can't do it because of my job or my this or my that )

And then what happens??  Years later their life is done and they never lived as who they really were.  What sense does that make?

WELL DONE !!!!!

Glad you are here and welcome to the journey !!

[ChrissyRyan]

Welcome Wendi!   

Chrissy

[LizK]

Hello my name is Wendi and I'm MTF.

I've been monitoring the forum for quite some time and this is a fantastic forum so I decided to register.

The information and experience sharing is awesome.

I'm 61 years young and have been struggling with gender identity since I was in grade school. I would wear my mother's undergarments as often as I could always hiding myself for fear of being discovered.

I had wished that I was born as a female but I resigned myself to the fact that I wasn't and that there was nothing I could do about it. It was depressed thinking about it. I'd go on feeling like this on and off. I would go to the store and buy women's clothes as I felt so at ease when wearing them. As from what I have been reading I did what most do and ended up purging often. This cycle continued throughout my teens and even up to last year. I had talked about being a crossdresser and wanting to be female to her in the past but she was so put off by it that I stopped dressing and didn't discuss it for years until the urge got unbearable and I couldn't take it any more.

This past July I purchased more clothing and wore them. My wife obviously saw me dressed and we discussed my feelings again. I was really delighted when she saw how enthused I was talking about it that she and I went out and purchased a wardrobe for me. I've been out since July as Wendi just dressing as my old male persona occasionally so I wouldn't make it hard for my wife. My family including our 2 children know as does my wife's family.

Just two weeks ago I started HRT and I'm feeling great.

I'm really glad to be here and I look forward to learning as much as I can and sharing my experiences (as little as there is at this point) on my journey as Wendi.

Welcome Wendi


Glad you decided to join us here and become involved. Its a great place  with lots of great information. I in my mid 50's and started my transition a few ago. It is nice to read that you wife is also supportive as you definitely need support. Hope you enjoy your time here

Take care

Liz

[Wendi]

Thanks for all the warm welcomes.

[V M]

Hi Wendi 

Welcome to Susan's Place    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

Hugs

V M

[Susan R]

I would go to the store and buy women's clothes as I felt so at ease when wearing them. As from what I have been reading I did what most do and ended up purging often. This cycle continued throughout my teens and even up to last year.

Hi Wendi, your life's journey sounds so much like mine.  Purging seems to be common among people like us.  The cycle seems to always continue no matter how hard you try.  I just completed a 22 year purge but finally gave up fighting it.  I started counseling in Dec 2017 and HRT in Sept 2018.  My wife is completely accepting so it looks like I'll never need to purge again.

I'm glad to hear that you are having the same success on your journey.  Sometimes communication can solve the impossible.  You sharing your true needs was exactly what your wife needed to see it was a critical part of your self that you could no longer hide.  I look forward to reading more about your journey.  Thank you for sharing.

Susan R🌷