Hello everyone

[Stephanie_James]

I a 63 year old male to female transgendered person. I was on this site many years ago when I thought that my gender identity was some sexual perversion. Wow, how things have changed. I have been on hormone replacement therapy for over three years now and am currently having electrolysis once a month. I keep questioning myself about what the hell am doing, at my age, I should be secure in my masculinity. So here I am at this, still wonderful, web site. As I read some of the other post it becomes evident that I am not alone. This truly is a big comfort and I intend to take advantage of it. Thank you all for being so very brave in being who you truly are, Stephanie

[Jessica]

Hi Stephanie 🙋‍♀️ Welcome back to Susan's Place!  I'm Jessica.
Yes, there are many that shared your experience of questioning themselves.  It is a great relief to know that you are not alone.

I see you're new here, so I'll post some links that may help you get better acquainted with the site. Pay attention to the site rules they can be of great help and don't forget the link highlighted red.  It has answers to questions that are commonly asked.  Then join in on a topic you find interesting and learn and share.

Things that you should read

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[Maid Marion]

Hi Stephanie,

Welcome!  And thanks for sharing!

Marion

[ChrissyRyan]

Stephanie,


    Welcome!   


Chrissy

[Northern Star Girl]

I a 63 year old male to female transgendered person. I was on this site many years ago when I thought that my gender identity was some sexual perversion. Wow, how things have changed. I have been on hormone replacement therapy for over three years now and am currently having electrolysis once a month. I keep questioning myself about what the hell am doing, at my age, I should be secure in my masculinity. So here I am at this, still wonderful, web site. As I read some of the other post it becomes evident that I am not alone. This truly is a big comfort and I intend to take advantage of it. Thank you all for being so very brave in being who you truly are, Stephanie

@Stephanie_James
Dear Stephanie:
     I am so very happy to see that you have signed up today as a member of Susan's Place and the Forums.
I also see that our lovely member and Calfornia Girl  @Jessica  has already Officially Welcomed you... and at the end of her welcome message to you she has given you important and informative LINKS that will help you to navigate and around the forums and get the most out of your time here on the Forums.

    As you post here on the forums you will be able to exchange thoughts and comments with others that are experiencing many of the same things that you are.

    This is the right place for you to be to find out what others may have to say that may have been in your circumstances and with your questions and concerns.
    There are a lot of members here that will be able to identify with your situation as you continue to feel free to share it.

    I also want to warmly WELCOME you to Susan's Place. 
You will find this a safe and friendly place to share with others and to read about others similar trials, tribulations, and successes.

    As you are certainly aware you can share with others and involve yourself with some give and take with other like-minded members.  When frustrated or if you have successes you can share it here if you wish and receive support from others and offer support to others. ....
     ***There is a very good chance that you might find that you will make some new like-minded friends here. 

    Please come in and continue to be involved at your own pace.
   
    Make a point to look closely at the LINKS in RED at the end of Jessica's welcome message, answers are there to many questions that new members ask.     

Again, Welcome to Susan's Place.
Danielle

[V M]

Hi Stephanie 

Welcome to Susan's Place    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

Hugs

V M

[Linde]

I a 63 year old male to female transgendered person. I was on this site many years ago when I thought that my gender identity was some sexual perversion. Wow, how things have changed. I have been on hormone replacement therapy for over three years now and am currently having electrolysis once a month. I keep questioning myself about what the hell am doing, at my age, I should be secure in my masculinity. So here I am at this, still wonderful, web site. As I read some of the other post it becomes evident that I am not alone. This truly is a big comfort and I intend to take advantage of it. Thank you all for being so very brave in being who you truly are, Stephanie

Hi Stephanie, why would you think that you are secure in your masculinity, only you are a few years older than some other transgender persons?
Let me tell you, compared to me you are still a young person, and I was much older than you when I transitioned.  My therapist feels the the only gender I am secure in, is my femininity.  All those years I tried to be a man did nothing to make me feel secure in the male gender!

[Stephanie_James]

Thank you, everyone. All of your timely replies go straight to my heart.

[KimOct]

Stephanie - Your past feelings of thinking it was a sexual perversion are common.  I have read bunches of theories and explanations that I will not go into here.  But trust me it is very common among transgender people to confuse - conflate - and blend their gender orientation and their sexual desire.  The lines blur and it is very common.  There are dozens of sites around the internet both pornographic and tame fantasy that demonstrate how common it is.

I am glad that you are getting a handle on accepting the real you.  I am only a few years younger than you and I fully transitioned at 56.  I wish I did it at 26 but better late than NEVER.  Many people never come to terms with it.  At least we did.

[tgirlamg]

Welcome back aboard Stephanie!!!

Amazing discoveries await you sister!!! It is never too late to point one's life in the correct direction and put an end to a lifetime of hiding!!!

All good things to you on your journey forward!!! 🙏🌺

Onward we go brave sister!!!

Ashley 🙋‍♀️💕🌻

[Stephanie_James]

Thank you Kimoct and tgirlamg for you wonderful replies. Kim, your quote is so spot on "The first transphobe you have to conquer is yourself". I think I will roll around on that for a bit. Tgirlamg, " lifetime of hiding" isn't that the truth. I sure got good at it but in the end it wasn't real and true authenticity is what I truly desire, I know it now. Its time to look for facial surgery in the San Francisco area. I must go forward and I am hoping that I find some good advice on this site. Wish me luck.
Hugs

[tgirlamg]

Thank you Kimoct and tgirlamg for you wonderful replies. Kim, your quote is so spot on "The first transphobe you have to conquer is yourself". I think I will roll around on that for a bit. Tgirlamg, " lifetime of hiding" isn't that the truth. I sure got good at it but in the end it wasn't real and true authenticity is what I truly desire, I know it now. Its time to look for facial surgery in the San Francisco area. I must go forward and I am hoping that I find some good advice on this site. Wish me luck.
Hugs

Good Morning Stephanie!!!

I did my facial surgeries in San Francisco with Dr Deschamps-Brady who took over the practice for Dr Ousterhout ( the pioneer of FFS ) and Dr O was also involved during my procedures.... Dr Ousterhout's FFS book is a great place to start researching procedures

Here are some before and afters

https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,210798.msg2203468.html#msg2203468


If you are in SF, i am just a bit south in the Monterey Bay Area... Please don't hesitate to let me know if I could be of help along the way... Transition is a path best walked with friends at your side and you are amongst them here!

After a lifetime of hiding you will be amazed how deeply you have buried little pieces of the puzzle that makes up you... putting them together and finally seeing yourself and your place in the world is an experience not to be missed...

Amazing things await!

Onward we go brave sister!!!

Ashley 🙋‍♀️💕🌻

[Stephanie_James]

Thank you so much Ashley. I will call your Dr.. Your transition is nothing short of wow and your words of inspiration made me cry, a good thing. I would love to talk to you more down the road a bit, Therapist this am. Have a great day. Stephanie

[tgirlamg]

Thank you so much Ashley. I will call your Dr.. Your transition is nothing short of wow and your words of inspiration made me cry, a good thing. I would love to talk to you more down the road a bit, Therapist this am. Have a great day. Stephanie

Good Morning Sister!!!

Looks like auto correct gave me "Brady"... it should be Dr Deschamps-Braly...

Thanks for the kind words and I am happy to help in any ways I can!!! Have a great time at the therapist... I suspect from your words that there is a sense of exitment in the air as you begin to feel...more and more... that a life that reflects your truth has been waiting patiently...and the time to claim it is now at hand...

Onward we go brave sister!!!

Ashley 🙋‍♀️💕🌻

[Zoey421]

Hi Stephanie, welcome to Susan's Place. It is never too late to accept yourself. I came to accept myself at 54 and although this experience is very recent for me, only 3 months since I came out, I have found happiness and calm that I haven't experienced in decades. Welcome back to this forum, there are many wonderful friends here.

Hugs Zoey

[Stephanie_James]

Thank you.