Putting onvmy big girl pants and getting on

[Mariabella]

This morning I felt it lurking in the back ground noise of the day. As the morning went on it became a palpable dark building. I began becoming frustrated, angry, anxious. About two I took a deep breath and chased that bit of persona back to hell and did my nails. Amazing! I am typing with crimson gels I did my self and feel happy again.Every new skill I get makes me more secure in myself and happy.Tomorrow we go to my wifes continuing ed class in Eugene and I get to pick up a couple outfits for her while there and see the girl who is teaching me makeup tricks for my age. Wife complimented my nails and i told her she is next and got a big smile. This day could have devolved into  dark place but a few simple things changed it to a good day.
Just wanted to share as it is real growth from when the dysphoria was like cancer and consuming me.
Besos
Mariabella 

[Maid Marion]

Yes, sometimes it is the little things that matter! That is the way to learn.  A little bit at a time!

[LizK]

This morning I felt it lurking in the back ground noise of the day. As the morning went on it became a palpable dark building. I began becoming frustrated, angry, anxious. About two I took a deep breath and chased that bit of persona back to hell and did my nails. Amazing! I am typing with crimson gels I did my self and feel happy again.Every new skill I get makes me more secure in myself and happy.Tomorrow we go to my wifes continuing ed class in Eugene and I get to pick up a couple outfits for her while there and see the girl who is teaching me makeup tricks for my age. Wife complimented my nails and i told her she is next and got a big smile. This day could have devolved into  dark place but a few simple things changed it to a good day.
Just wanted to share as it is real growth from when the dysphoria was like cancer and consuming me.
Besos
Mariabella

@Mariabella

Nicely done Mariabella

Sounds like you averted what could have been a nasty day. Sometimes it can be easily done by not letting it get the better of you and acting on it earlier rather than later. Sounds like you have a wonderfully supportive wife which certainly helps.

Liz

[Mariabella]

Support ebbs and flows. I try and respect her part in this so when she becomes uneasy I back off. Trying to always remember this is both our journey of it is to be " us"  going forward. We both want this but both realize it is going to be a process. So that day I averted a dysphoric day but the deep crimson gel nails I was wearing made the wife kind of jealous. I took them off and did her nails extra flash. So it is clear as her best girl I need to not eclipse her place as a natural woman but respect it and honor it. After all it is my ideal to try and live up to so respecting the woman who has always been is as important as owning the woman I wish to be. This is all way outside normal for her so how I act, react and proceed always includes her. I hope in the end we can be the couple we always wanted to be with some gender adjustments.

[LizK]

Support ebbs and flows. I try and respect her part in this so when she becomes uneasy I back off. Trying to always remember this is both our journey of it is to be " us"  going forward. We both want this but both realize it is going to be a process. So that day I averted a dysphoric day but the deep crimson gel nails I was wearing made the wife kind of jealous. I took them off and did her nails extra flash. So it is clear as her best girl I need to not eclipse her place as a natural woman but respect it and honor it. After all it is my ideal to try and live up to so respecting the woman who has always been is as important as owning the woman I wish to be. This is all way outside normal for her so how I act, react and proceed always includes her. I hope in the end we can be the couple we always wanted to be with some gender adjustments.

It can be a hugely challenging journey for everyone but for our spouses the challenge can be even more difficult. Putting her first and doing things to show how much you love and respect her can only help things. That can be difficult but achievable as the long term gains for being patient and putting her first are huge. Instead of having to "drag" our wife's along given your actions they are more likely to  come willingly and along side you.

Liz


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