Hi! Nice to meet you! I'm Roxanne, but you can call me Roxy!

It's been a while since I discovered this site and today I decided to join. First of all, sorry if my English is not always correct, as it's not my first language. I hope it will be ok!
Of course, Roxanne is not my real name, but it's my name as a girl. It is an adaptation of the sum of the first part of my sisters' names.
You see, I haven't come out as a transgender yet, but inside of me I know I am a girl. This is maybe the only thing I know for sure about me, because I really am a mess! My certainties began to fall down as soon as I graduated. I don't know what I'm going to do with my life, but I wish I had enough money to start transition, even if it would be really hard, because I don't have a job yet and I don't know if my parents would support my choice. They are really catholic and old-fashioned.
My only relief valve is the internet, where I often pretend I'm a real girl, even though I'm sorry to be continuously deceiving people with whom I come in contact... But I really need it.
Recently, I discovered FaceApp and the sex change effect. I can spend full hours taking photos of me and changing me into a girl. Sometimes the results are outstanding, and it makes me even sadder thinking that I could have been quite hot. I long for being pretty, having long hair to style, wearing cute dresses, earrings and make-up and... Boys. Yes, I thought I liked girls until just a few months ago, but I'm getting more and more into boys.
So... I'm sorry I wrote that much, but I feel so relieved right now!
This is just a part of me. I'll tell you more when I see you around here. Bye for now and thanks for reading!