Friday morning, the last 24 hours has my mind all over the place (it's not hormones), I found myself even changing my profile here, numerous times over the course of my time in front of this computer yesterday (why ?), only to return to my "standard selfie". I am not really looking for replies, but simply documenting a state a mind, and awaking with the feeling of profound awe of all the events that intersected my life. It's really weird what the sub-conscience mind can come up with, not like dreaming, but more analyzing thoughts and experiences, and then feelings. I think about my actions 40 even 50 years ago, and how those sequence of events, has brought me to this moment here in 2019 at a computer keyboard typing messages into a thing called the Internet, and more specifically a forum of transsexuals and others, explaining my sex change experience in hindsight and then others with similar experiences answer, like wow. In my wildest dreams I could not have imagined this. It's the Talking Heads song asking the existential question "well how did I get here ?". The choices in life made, we are the sum of our actions, experiences, and how we intersect others is so profound, yes even here on this forum, I find myself feeling a sense of "deja vu", like I've been here before, I've seen their faces here, I've heard their words perhaps in another time, but the time frame is different now. My actions affected an outcome, the outcome I see before me, and gives me purpose to affect an outcome of the future, however unimportant or insignificant it might be. That's why kindness and caring is so important, I put a message of kindness in my signature, because I feel that way, kindness will make our world better, I truly believe kindness is love nurturing your soul.....
if you made it this far, congratulations.
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