So I've started streaming myself online and I get great pleasure from all the attention.
It is factual that I am quite beautiful. I have a feminine face and a feminine body, in short I am ridiculously beautiful so I feel the need to share this with the world.
However, tonight I got a little too drunk while streaming. I shut off the stream because it was time for dinner. Then I went to the kitchen to make some food, I took a steak knife and accidentally cut deeply into my thumb.
So after bleeding all over the apartment I took some duct tape and wrapped it around my thumb to stop the bleeding.
I am so worried about how it'll feel when I wake up in the morning. More than likely, I will drink the rest of the vodka and start my day that way.
Streaming my face and body online is SO satisfying. The positive comments are so nice for my self-esteem. It gives me an avenue where I can completely embrace my narcissism and be rewarded for it. The other option is clearly suicide. I just wish I wasn't so clumsy where I would get drunk enough to cut myself and bleed all over the place!
Anyways thats all I have for now... thanks for reading fans!
--Ashley Swanson
