Faith's Progress 2.0

[Faith]

Mother's Day, not for me. Without understanding why, I fought against any Mother's Day celebrating. Now I look back and know why. Still, even now, I do not wish to be celebrated for Mother's Day. My children have a Mother and she's a great Mom. I was a good Father, was I a great Dad? My children think so and that's what counts. It wasn't and isn't about any particular role that we played in the upbringing, it's who we were, who we are. I'm still Dad, I'll always be their Dad. I would never wish to take that day away from their Mom.

I will celebrate my two daughters for being Moms, I will celebrate my wife for being Mom. I am not Mom, I'm Dad. I can live with that.

For me, I would like to wish my Mom a Happy Mother's Day as Faith. Yet I can't, she is no longer with us. She never got to meet Faith.

[Faith]

Overall just a quiet family day yesterday. Nothing untoward happened. Today is a new week. This week, it's time to get serious about diet and exercise again. I've put on 8 lbs since our vacation-that-wasn't trip. ICK!!

I have great will power, I need to work on my won't power. Instead of "I will take a bite" "I will eat that cookie" I will eat that doughnut" "I will nibble just a little more" I need to change them all to wont's.

Oh, one quiet little comment. Lori and my daughters, and granddaughters, were all outside. I walked out to join them and they were like, "We were just talking about you". It came up about all the gals being outside and the guys inside. The comment was made that, "Nope, not all the gals, Dad is still inside". hmmm .. yeah, I'll take it

[sarah1972]

Awww... so cool! Happy for you!

Glad you had a quiet weekend.

Hugs, Sarah

The comment was made that, "Nope, not all the gals, Dad is still inside". hmmm .. yeah, I'll take it

[Northern Star Girl]

@Faith
Dear Faith:
Overall, in spite of your diet difficulties... I much enjoyed reading your, what I considered to be, a good report.
Yes, after your "vacation" get back to your "will-power" mode and get that extra weight off.

I am rejoicing with you regarding your comment about the gals outside and the guys inside... and you walked outside you heard  "Nope, not all the gals, Dad is still inside".

Have a great day and a good "new" week .....
Again, thank you for sharing.
Hugs and best wishes,
Danielle

Overall just a quiet family day yesterday. Nothing untoward happened. Today is a new week. This week, it's time to get serious about diet and exercise again. I've put on 8 lbs since our vacation-that-wasn't trip. ICK!!

I have great will power, I need to work on my won't power. Instead of "I will take a bite" "I will eat that cookie" I will eat that doughnut" "I will nibble just a little more" I need to change them all to wont's.

Oh, one quiet little comment. Lori and my daughters, and granddaughters, were all outside. I walked out to join them and they were like, "We were just talking about you". It came up about all the gals being outside and the guys inside. The comment was made that, "Nope, not all the gals, Dad is still inside". hmmm .. yeah, I'll take it

[CynthiaAnn]

The comment was made that, "Nope, not all the gals, Dad is still inside". hmmm .. yeah, I'll take it

Nice !! Have a great week

C -

[Faith]

I ate my banana
I ate my other banana
I ate my 15 almonds
I drank my coffee
an hour to go before I can eat my salad ... AAARRRRRRGGGGHHHHH *grumble gurgle*

hmm, I do have one small potato ............................................

[Faith]

On to transition seriousness. I still struggle with mirrors. I look as much as I can, I take more selfies than a self-idolizing egotistical teen, then I try to share where others see, reply, try for positive feedback only to get .. more struggle. Will my brain ever give up and just say, enough is enough, yes you're a woman!!

Ok, I got that off my chest .. which wasn't hard since the slopes are fairly low.

Have a Monday selfie

Yes, I tied my hair back .. it was in the way. I really  need to get a haircut.

[CynthiaAnn]

Very nice Faith, yes you are woman, there I said it, I've been following your thread for a bit now, and I will tell you, I admire folks that step up and post real pictures. I think your selfie today has the "glow" of femininity (IMHO).

The Internet is full of "snap chat filtered computer generated images of what a human might look like in the other gender", I like real.

You're real

C -

[Linde]

On to transition seriousness. I still struggle with mirrors. I look as much as I can, I take more selfies than a self-idolizing egotistical teen, then I try to share where others see, reply, try for positive feedback only to get .. more struggle. Will my brain ever give up and just say, enough is enough, yes you're a woman!!

Ok, I got that off my chest .. which wasn't hard since the slopes are fairly low.

Have a Monday selfie
Yes, I tied my hair back .. it was in the way. I really  need to get a haircut.

As I always told you, you look great!

[Faith]

As I always told you, you look great!

Yes, and most people agree. I'm the one having issues with me *sigh*

Very nice Faith, yes you are woman, there I said it, I've been following your thread for a bit now, and I will tell you, I admire folks that step up and post real pictures. I think your selfie today has the "glow" of femininity (IMHO).

The Internet is full of "snap chat filtered computer generated images of what a human might look like in the other gender", I like real.

You're real

C -

Yeah, no, I can't do filtered images. I played with some, what's the point? It's not me. My work ID badge is the only doctored image that I use anymore. It really looks like me now, only younger.

Then there is the really unfiltered .. no makeup (last Friday)

who is that creepy dude

Still, the photo does show that my receding hairline is filling in

[Faith]

sorry, my no make-up photo must have scared you all away. I promise not to offend your senses again.

New day, same struggles. mirrors .. ugh; body shape .. ugh; who am I .. uh, yeah, I got that one figured out, sort of, as much as any of us do; partnership - ARRGGHHH. We are so much better off than we were, so much better off than many others - even cis-couples, yet ... there's this line. It's a very thick heavy tall line that I just can't seem to cross. Can't move it, can't climb it, can't go around it. All I can do is erode it and that takes time. I'm in a prison of my own making and it's a life sentence.

sigh

Oh, no, actually I'm in a good mood. I'm just musing and expressing. Want photo proof? naaah, why spoil it ...

[LizK]

sorry, my no make-up photo must have scared you all away. I promise not to offend your senses again.

... there's this line. It's a very thick heavy tall line that I just can't seem to cross. Can't move it, can't climb it, can't go around it. All I can do is erode it and that takes time. I'm in a prison of my own making and it's a life sentence.

sigh

Lines can be erased if you find the right removal tool...I am sure there is one out there just made for you.

[CynthiaAnn]

sorry, my no make-up photo must have scared you all away. I promise not to offend your senses again.

New day, same struggles. mirrors .. ugh; body shape .. ugh; who am I .. uh, yeah, I got that one figured out, sort of, as much as any of us do; partnership - ARRGGHHH. We are so much better off than we were, so much better off than many others - even cis-couples, yet ... there's this line. It's a very thick heavy tall line that I just can't seem to cross. Can't move it, can't climb it, can't go around it. All I can do is erode it and that takes time. I'm in a prison of my own making and it's a life sentence.

sigh

Oh, no, actually I'm in a good mood. I'm just musing and expressing. Want photo proof? naaah, why spoil it ...

New day, new vibe, I liked the first picture better. Invisible lines we create in our minds, "break on through to the other side" channeling Morrison this morning...

C -

[Faith]

This line isn't in my head. I still need to cross it. Slow process

OH, is this good or bad?

I walked past a male co-worker this morning, long time work friend, anyways we both said good morning yet while I looked at his face to say hi, his eyes never moved up that far   

[TonyaW]

This line isn't in my head. I still need to cross it. Slow process

OH, is this good or bad?

I walked past a male co-worker this morning, long time work friend, anyways we both said good morning yet while I looked at his face to say hi, his eyes never moved up that far   

Was he avoiding eye contact or looking at something else? Let's go with stunned by your beauty and didn't want to get caught staring. 

Regarding the pictures from yesterday, biggest difference is the smile. I hate being  the "you should smile more" person, but you look happier in the first one.

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[CynthiaAnn]

It's hard for guys, think about all the socialization they've been through.

[steph2.0]

This line isn't in my head. I still need to cross it. Slow process

The walls that won't come down,
We can decorate or climb
Or find a way to get around
'Cause I'm still on your side...
- Coast of Carolina, Jimmy Buffett/Mac McAnally

We're all on your side.

If you can't get across that line, plant flowers on it.

OH, is this good or bad?

I walked past a male co-worker this morning, long time work friend, anyways we both said good morning yet while I looked at his face to say hi, his eyes never moved up that far   

OH, that's good. I have the opposite problem.

Hey buddy, my t*ts are down here!


Stephanie

[Faith]

It's hard for guys, think about all the socialization they've been through.

I can't, I'm trying to forget it.

OH, that's good. I have the opposite problem.

Hey buddy, my t*ts are down here!

Stephanie

I don't know what he could see. I can barely see them when I look down at them much less (literally, much less) in the mirror looking straight on. Maybe he was hoping for a glimpse. "Hey buddy, a glimpse is all you get .. blink and they're gone"

[Faith]

a random meaningless post for today, hmm, let me think ..

It was cold in our house yesterday (overworking AC)
I went outside on the steps to warm up a bit
Something was in the air, it hit my sinuses hard within seconds
nasty headache, couldn't breathe, sneezing

Today I'm ... just as bad. I don't know what is was, it was potent.

and there you have it, a high quality post worthy of sharing with no one.
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oh, my mood? My mood is fine, I just feel like crap.

[Northern Star Girl]

@Faith
Dear Faith:
Well, for one, I enjoyed your "everyday life" posting.  ...  and the good news is that
you stated "oh, my mood? My mood is fine"

Wow, Air Conditioning already?   Here it has not broken the 70 deg F mark yet.  It was 61 deg F yesterday and today it may get into the mid or even high 60's  .... but based on past years I do expect warmer temperatures in the next week or so.....   but no air conditioning needed, which is a good thing because there are no homes here have Air Conditioning.

Thank you for sharing.....
Hugs,
Danielle

a random meaningless post for today, hmm, let me think ..

It was cold in our house yesterday (overworking AC)
I went outside on the steps to warm up a bit
Something was in the air, it hit my sinuses hard within seconds
nasty headache, couldn't breathe, sneezing

Today I'm ... just as bad. I don't know what is was, it was potent.

and there you have it, a high quality post worthy of sharing with no one.
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oh, my mood? My mood is fine, I just feel like crap.