Hi Pamela, thanks for taking the time to reply.
I'm really struggling with all this, I never seem to reach any conclusion or any progress. Nope, I didn't receive any reply from Christina Richards, and Dr Mepham (also seemingly formerly of the GIC) I haven't contacted yet but I assume he'll not reply either.
I wasn't trans enough i guess. Because i wouldn't change the gender marker, even though I TOLD THEM I was worried about my job because there was a culture of bullying at this place. As it's turned out, I was right to be guarded as several people left over the course of a few years due to bullying at my old place until I too left along with a colleague. Basically don't go to the NHS with gender issues unless you're content with turning up in a dress and demanding hormones so you can be the best little lady you can be, pretty please. They should be ashamed of themselves in this day and age for enforcing such behaviour. i really do hope they reply, and I might make a trip there in my car and give them both barrels, because it took me three years to simply get to the stage of having appointments and then they blackmail me into withholding treatment unless i take one for the team and out myself. What a bunch of ****s.
Ultimately, I think Mepham and Richards were naive about being trans out of the academic environment, in the classic way that many medical intellectuals are. Richards' particular come back to my "i'm worried i'll get fired for being trans" was "well I'm doing well I've come out as trans". Now, Richards were working in a clinic. For trans people. Of course she was doing well. It'd be a particularly weird gender clinic if the trans doctor was receiving transphobic issues at work wouldn't it? She should have come down to my place of work - an automotive parts factory in a small backwater town - and see how she'd be treated. But nope, in their cosseted world of meetings and research papers, I guess the world seems like a very safe and open place.
I heard similar arguments from trans people in 2015, who said things like "well, you can't fire trans people because of laws"... and then a year or so later Trump happened, and the Western world has lurched towards the right wing. So I wasn't wrong about being cautious about being open about being trans. So far, my pessimism has not proved unfounded.
I now work in the civil service myself and i notice the same mindset with many of my colleagues as they have - childlike naivety for everyday issues.
Thanks for replying once again. Well, tjere is no transition and probably never will be because of - and I'll try and refrain from swearing - ******** like the idiots at the Nottingham GIC.
I can't stress how distressing life has been regarding gender. When I was a kid I was bullied for not being manly enough, and then when I commit to the gender i feel I am, I'm then essentially told I'm not female enough. It leaves a corrosive stain on your soul all this stuff does.
EDIT:
Interestingly, i just found this about Nick Mepham
https://starrythomas.wordpress.com/2016/08/13/warning-on-dr-mepham-at-nottingham-gic-if-you/