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steph2.0

Quote from: KathyLauren on April 13, 2019, 09:32:27 AM
What a great report, Stephanie!  It sounds like you had a great time.  It is obvious that you are respected and liked by your fellow aviators.

Thank you Kathy. After thinking I wouldn't be around for the 2018 show, I can't wait for 2020! I got along with almost everyone in the before-times, but aviators tend to be a conservative bunch, and - no doubt because of my previous pessimistic and cynical view of the world - I expected the worst. I have never been happier to be proven wrong!


Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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steph2.0

Quote from: Donica on April 13, 2019, 09:52:48 AM
I think it was your voice? I had a little trouble finding my way but I definitely heard a man and a woman on the link you provided us.

That is some of the happiest feedback I've gotten about the whole show, Donica. I was terribly self-conscious about my voice all week, but I had no choice but to keep talking. I got excellent feedback from another friend here, so I know I have work to do on it yet, but it's wonderful to know that it was working well enough. Thank you.


Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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steph2.0

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Quote from: KatieP on April 13, 2019, 12:24:24 PM
Steph, you have the BEST updates of anyone, on this forum, or probably on the Internet. I feel like I was there, seeing it through your eyes!

OMG, on the entire internet?! I seriously doubt that, but I am so happy you enjoyed it. Most likely due to the length of my entries, I suspect I've chased away many of those who used to come here. It's nice to know I have a core group who are willing to sit through my lengthy ramblings.

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And, listening to you announce, I was amazed at your encyclopedic knowledge of airplanes. You are truly a Homebuilt treasure!

Hmmm. Okay, I'll accept that I'm a big fish in the tiniest pond you've ever seen. I'm not sure if it even qualifies as a puddle, but it's pretty cool that I've found a niche that allows me to be useful.

Thank you for your honest and so useful back-channel feedback on my voice. I tried hard to incorporate your suggestions into my patter. It was an interesting struggle to balance processor cycles between making the voice sound as good as I could, and pulling that aircraft knowledge out of my brain. You may have noticed occasional pauses in my commentary. That was necessary while the buffer refilled. It almost literally felt like that. I would just run out of things to say, so I'd stop for a second, and the words came pouring in so I could pour them out.

I need to have another core installed before next year...


Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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KatieP

Quote from: steph2.0 on April 15, 2019, 05:06:14 PM


Thank you for your honest and so useful back-channel feedback on my voice.

Whew! I was really worried. I am a newbie here, and I thought perhaps I pissed off one of the royal family when I didn't hear from you at all.  ;D And, don't make excuses like you were busy...  ;D OK. I was worried, and I really don't know what I was thinking about getting any response. Why would Kate Middleton or Megan Markel reply to some pauper in the street? They wouldn't...  ;D

And, I tease A LOT. I really like Moni's tag line about never having any intention to offend in any way. I will always try to be non-offensive on these boards, but I am inept in my wording at times, and "we" can be a bit sensitive at times.

Anyway, I will double down on my comments about both your spectacular updates, and your incredible knowledge. You can say, Big Fish in a small bowl, but I don't think the homebuilt universe is small at all. In many ways, it is the largest of the aviation oceans -- and you are still a big fish...

;D

Kate
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steph2.0

Quote from: KatieP on April 15, 2019, 05:55:15 PM
Whew! I was really worried. I am a newbie here, and I thought perhaps I pissed off one of the royal family when I didn't hear from you at all.  ;D And, don't make excuses like you were busy...  ;D OK. I was worried, and I really don't know what I was thinking about getting any response. Why would Kate Middleton or Megan Markel reply to some pauper in the street? They wouldn't...  ;D

And, I tease A LOT. I really like Moni's tag line about never having any intention to offend in any way.

Wait, what? Royalty!? Pfffftt! You do tease a lot! Did you think I would shake my sceptre at you and pronounce, "We are not amused!"?

I do apologize for not replying sooner. Despite your warning, I intend to use the "busy" excuse. Do not contradict me, woman!

QuoteI will always try to be non-offensive on these boards, but I am inept in my wording at times, and "we" can be a bit sensitive at times.

Well well. Look who's using the Royal "We" now!

QuoteAnyway, I will double down on my comments about both your spectacular updates, and your incredible knowledge. You can say, Big Fish in a small bowl, but I don't think the homebuilt universe is small at all. In many ways, it is the largest of the aviation oceans -- and you are still a big fish...

;D

I try, but generally speaking, when you start getting into stuff that uses the 1930's technology tractor engines (Lycoming/Continental) I start swinging in the breeze. It's why I feel at home on the light plane strip. I can tell you about stuff flying with Rotax/Hirth/Kawasaki/etc. and certain auto conversions (Viking/Aeromomentum/Aerovee/etc.) all day long. And anything with a stall speed above 45mph is cool, but outside my area of expertise.

Anyway, thank you again for the valuable feedback.

Now remove yourself from our radiant presence, serf.


Stephanie


Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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steph2.0

Just a short entry (uh huh, sure) about last Saturday night. My Bestie and I went out to see an 80's cover band, "Shadow Cabinet," and had a wonderful time. Having graduated high school in the Pleistocene Era (1976 - yes, I'm ancient) I thought I wouldn't like the music, but wow, they were good! The only downside was there was no dance floor, so I couldn't get up and move the way I wanted to.

We were addressed as ladies by all we met, and it felt so good to get out and enjoy the warm evening. We don't have any full length pictures, but Cassie wore her new swing dress and I wore a light above-the-knee rayon skirt that felt so good in the breeze, and in a surprising new development, a camisole with spaghetti straps, which I'd never expected to be able to rock with these wide shoulders. A lightweight scarf finished my look. If I must say so myself (and I probably do) I'm not doing too bad for a sixty-year-old broad.

We took a couple of selfies, and I don't know which I like best, so you have to look at both of them. Take that!






Stephanie


Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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Faith

Steph, all of your posts are fabulous .. including the photos. I do my best to ease your head swell by not telling you very often :D

hugs
Faith
I left the door open, only a few came through. such is my life.
Bluesky:@faithnd.bsky.social

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steph2.0

Quote from: Faith on April 16, 2019, 08:33:19 AM
Steph, all of your posts are fabulous .. including the photos. I do my best to ease your head swell by not telling you very often :D

hugs
Faith

Oh, I wouldn't want to trouble you by restricting your wish to praise me. You simply don't need that kind of stress, so please, do go on. I'm just looking out for your well-being. I'm unselfish like that.


Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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Faith

Quote from: steph2.0 on April 16, 2019, 08:36:53 AM
Oh, I wouldn't want to trouble you by restricting your wish to praise me. You simply don't need that kind of stress, so please, do go on. I'm just looking out for your well-being. I'm unselfish like that.

Well, alrighty then. Except that my head is mush as I sit outside the courtroom 35 min early with nothing to do. I can't shake this feeling of dread, that something will go wrong ....... anxious ..... I wish it was that mild.
I left the door open, only a few came through. such is my life.
Bluesky:@faithnd.bsky.social

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Faith

Oh, how about, the flowers pale in comparison to the glow emanating from the two ladies enjoying their outing.
I left the door open, only a few came through. such is my life.
Bluesky:@faithnd.bsky.social

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steph2.0

Quote from: Faith on April 16, 2019, 09:48:01 AM
Oh, how about, the flowers pale in comparison to the glow emanating from the two ladies enjoying their outing.

It's a valiant effort and a good start. You may continue.

As for the court date, if you've gotten this far the rest is a formality. After-pics outside the courthouse with the appropriate big smiles are required. You got this, girl!

Hugs!!!


Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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Faith

Quote from: steph2.0 on April 16, 2019, 10:05:31 AM
It's a valiant effort and a good start. You may continue.

As for the court date, if you've gotten this far the rest is a formality. After-pics outside the courthouse with the appropriate big smiles are required. You got this, girl!

Hugs!!!

Uh-oh ... No pics. We had the granddaughter and had to rush her home for naptime.

Yeah, as anyone would figure, it was a rubber stamp event. I'll update in my thread, however, yes .. petition for name change approved. I am Faith Nicole.
I left the door open, only a few came through. such is my life.
Bluesky:@faithnd.bsky.social

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steph2.0

Quote from: Faith on April 16, 2019, 11:10:05 AM
Uh-oh ... No pics. We had the granddaughter and had to rush her home for naptime.

Yeah, as anyone would figure, it was a rubber stamp event. I'll update in my thread, however, yes .. petition for name change approved. I am Faith Nicole.

SQUEEE!


Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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steph2.0

I just received my latest lab results:

Total serum estrogen 434 ng/ml.
Luteal phase range 130-460.
Originally 2582!

Estrone 71 ng/ml.
Luteal phase range 16-173.
Originally 1582!

These are the second results since I switched from oral to Estradiol Valerate injections. They were lower than they'd been originally last time, but now things are now exactly where they should be. Obviously the injections were just what I needed. Thank you Dr Powers!

Testosterone 4 pg/dl.
This is despite cutting my spiro dose in half. I'm trying to decide whether to halve it again or quit it altogether. It appears that, as mentioned as a possibility, the estradiol is suppressing T on its own. I'll be talking to my doctor about that.


Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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Donica

Good lab results Steph. I can't tell the difference between both of your selfies with you and Cassie. Both of them look great. All 4 of you ;D
Rebirth 06/09/2017. HRT 08/22/2017. RLE 07/14/2018. Name and Gender change 10/19/2018. FFS 09/06/2019. GCS 05/26/2021.
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steph2.0

Quote from: Donica on April 16, 2019, 05:41:30 PM
Good lab results Steph. I can't tell the difference between both of your selfies with you and Cassie. Both of them look great. All 4 of you ;D

Yes, we had quite a crowd. We each have a twin.

For what it's worth, one of them was taken with the latest Samsung Galaxy phone, and the other with an iPhone X. I'm not telling you which is which, though, although anyone who knows me (Laurie!) will be able to guess. Comparisons might not be possible, though, since both were post-processed.


Stephanie


Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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Stevi

Steph,

Good to see you two out wearing your best smiles.  The outfits looked great, too.

Hug to you both,
Stei
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steph2.0

I had my follow up appointment with my doc yesterday, and we decided that the spiro was no longer necessary. I'm going to stop taking it for the next three months and see how the next lab results come back.

And the big news: I told him that I wanted to get on progesterone, and he had no problem with that. I'm following the recommendations of Dr. Will Powers as closely as I can, which is progesterone tablets plus micronized progesterone in a topical cream, applied to alternating breasts daily, plus to the face once a week. In his words, he's had "OVERWHELMINGLY (emphasis his) positive success" with this method as concerns breast growth and facial feminization.

Dr. Powers does recommend rectal dosing with the pills, but suppositories are hard to get and aren't covered by my insurance - and are about $500. Never mind. I'll take them orally for $38 for 90 days, even if they're only 1/3 as effective that way.

I don't know yet how much the cream will cost, since it has to be made up by a compounding pharmacy. I have the prescription and will take it to the pharmacy that makes my BLT cream and get a cost. Dr. Powers estimates about $60/month.

Wish me luck!


Stephanie


Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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steph2.0

We have our plane tickets for our Europe trip! We leave on May 29th and return on June 25th. We have a tentative itinerary of spending May 29th and 30th in London, then taking the train to Amsterdam on the 31st, where we'll stay until taking the train to Frankfurt on June 3rd. We'll then take the train to Zurich on June 5th, and then fly to Malaga/Marbella on June 8th. Cassie's visit to FacialTeam is on June 12th, and my work at Ocean Clinic is on June 13th. We've rented an entire apartment through AirBNB, and will be staying there until at least June 21st. Whenever they let us leave Marbella we'll be flying back to London.

We hope to meet up with as many Susan's denizens in London as possible, either on the evening of May 29th or 30th, or on our way home.

Next up: secure lodgings in the other places we'll be visiting, make train and plane reservations for the rest of the trip, and figure out what we're going to do in each place. We're being as frugal as possible, considering globe-trotting is inherently expensive.

This is going to be so much fun!


Stephanie


Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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steph2.0

In the meantime, life goes on. Let's see...

My Wonderful Sister
I had an awesome email conversation with my sister. In the before-times we didn't get along all that well. My fault for not being real, I guess. But we're so much closer now. Even though I'm 11 month older, I sometimes feel like the younger sister. I have so much to learn, and she's so cool about it all.

Business
My business is going through some changes. The company in Italy - whose planes I was attempting to sell, with little success - has decided to pull out of the US. It's disappointing, but not unexpected. It really doesn't change much that I'm doing, since I haven't had any serious support from them for at least a year. I'll move on without them.

HNT
Friday was my first HNT session in three weeks. My electrocutioner was sick one week, I was at Sun-N-Fun one week, then she had family in town. So to make up for lost time, she cranked up the zapper and switched from her usual blend method to thermolysis, and while it was much much fast, it was also a lot more ouchy. I called off the session after two hours. This week we're going to try two hours in the morning, a break for lunch and refreshing the BLT, then another two hours in the afternoon.

On the way home in a raging rainstorm something hit the windshield of the RocketSkate and left a nice long crack. Time to call the insurance company again.

A Busy Saturday
We were up early to get to a concealed firearms class. I have a diploma with my name on it, and a target with a nice tight grouping in the middle of the bad guy's chest. I don't even have a handgun yet, just some .22 rifles and a 20ga shotgun, but I'm going to go ahead and get the carry license anyway. When I can afford it I'll consider getting something to use that license with.

After class we went to the big outlet mall in Orlando, and I acted as enabler for Cassie to justify buying a few things. I even bought myself a Vera Bradley wallet.

From there we went back to Universal Studios, and continued experiencing the simple joys of being ourselves and being together.

We stopped for our traditional Starbucks fix on the way in, and Cassie snapped this:


On our upcoming trip to Europe, we'll be taking the train out of King's Cross station, so we decided to get this picture, with the thought of duplicating it at the real thing in about 5 weeks.


Everything went wonderfully, and we decided to go back to the Red Coconut Club, where we'd been treated so nicely last time we were there. On our previous visit the waitress had been really cool and attentive, and on our way out had whispered in Cassie's ear, "You two were so beautiful together tonight." This time couldn't have been more different. The band packed up at 10pm, and we were completely and deliberately ignored by the waitress working that night, while she served all the tables around us. We're mystified by the treatment - it's not like we were being embarrassingly demonstrative or anything - but it's a sure bet that we won't be going back again.

We were both so completely exhausted that we couldn't even make it all the way home without pulling into a parking lot to get a nap. It was another late night getting home.

A Relaxing Sunday
We slept in late, and I brought my sweetie a coffee and her laptop in bed, and let her relax and enjoy her morning off the hamster wheel, while I looked into more options for our upcoming trip. We finally got moving and had a great breakfast about the time other people were having their lunch.

It was time to do a little puttering. We installed some framing timbers around one side of the house, and filled them with potting soil in preparation for planting some greenery to bright the place up. We were both pleased with the way it turned out.





After cleaning up we got out the grill and made ourselves The Great American Comfort Food Dinner: Grilled burgers and onions, a salad, and baked beans. We watched a movie while enjoying our flame broiled epicurian delights - after which I dozed through most of the rest of the movie. It was a wonderfully laid-back day with my best friend, but it had to come to an end. I hated to leave, and I admit to having some ocular leakage as I went out to the RocketSkate and drove away.

Monday...
...started out with my doctor's appointment to talk about my latest lab results. I covered the results of that appointment in another entry, but the other thing I remember about the visit is how normally everyone treated me. I'm usually able to get the ladies there smiling, so they're happy to see me. It's so different than what I'd envisioned it would be like when I came out to them way back when. The old staff treat me nicely, and the new staff don't know about my past. After all, the records show Stephanie and an "F".  They have to look closely to see the F64.0 Transsexuality diagnosis way down in the records.

I got a surprise in the early afternoon. I was included in an invitation to a neighborhood lobster potluck dinner. It was at the house of the guy who has given me the hardest time over pronouns, although his wife sent out the invitation, and she's always been nice to me. I made my signature pineapple cole slaw and took some chicken in a marinade I made, for the "turf" part of the dinner. The hosts supplied the Florida lobsters they'd caught themselves - they're divers and always end up with more than they can eat themselves. I'm not complaining.

Another surprise was the way almost everyone treated me. Not as something special. Just as their neighbor Steph. Though I hung out with the women for the most part, I also had good conversations with the guys. After all, we all have the common interest in airplanes, so we always have a topic of conversation.

This was my outfit for the party:


The biggest shocking surprise though, happened as we were saying our goodbyes. The other alpha male - the one who had told me last fall that he was no longer comfortable around me - gave me a big hug. I don't want to over-analyze it. I just want to think that maybe we've turned some kind of corner and he's come to grips with who I now am. I wanted to thank him, but I think I'll keep quiet and just enjoy the new acceptance. I don't want to make him self-conscious about it. I did have some minor ocular leakage as I thought about it, though.

Tuesday: My Favorite Airplane is Back!
The owner of the airplane I'd built flew up this morning. The plane is due for its annual condition inspection, and since I have the official maintenance certificate (with the correct name on it!) I can do the inspection and sign the logbook. He flew me to lunch at Tampa North airport, and the waitress called me "honey" and "dear" and all the other terms waitresses use for women. She even winked at me a few times. I doubt she was flirting. I think she was just happy to see another woman in the airport cafe which is predominantly occupied by men. I suspect she thought I was the airplane owner's wife. (Squeee!)

We flew to the owner's house, where I hung out for part of the afternoon with his wonderful wife, who has been a kind of mentor to me. Incidentally, today I wore white capris, a white tank top, and a teal paisley 3/4 sleeve buttoned top left open. I thought it was a cute look, and it was perfect for showing my slowly growing girls while still disguising my lack of waist and hips. My friend complimented me on it, so I guess it worked out okay.

Since they both travel a lot, they had recommendations for our upcoming trip, and we talked at length about things they've seen on their globe-trotting adventures. It was a wonderful visit, but I had to get home. I got back in the plane, this time on the left side, and flew home. Ahhhhh...

I'm showing the seat reserved for my special copilot:


Off to trivia, where we lost miserably. It was still fun. Afterward, everyone else went home, and I stayed in the square, again enjoying being me and listening to the kick-ass 70s cover band.

And here we are, pretty much caught up. Tomorrow is lunch with my Bestie, another therapy session, and a social gathering with one of the Orlando T groups. I'll fill y'all in on that stuff later.

Stephanie


Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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