Hello *waves*
I thought I posted an intro to this messageboard awhile ago but it's disappeared. Well, I guess it was a hint when I had to re-register. Anyway, hi, I'm Allison. I'm working on getting that legally changed. I still haven't decided on a last name yet, just Allison Michelle. I am a pre-op M2F TS living in balmy FL. As I write this I am 29, almost 30. I live full-time and have been for at least 7 months now officially (unofficially 9 months I think). It's funny because I was full-time before I realized I was full-time. A few months into it I decided to ask my therapist (whom I see off and on) what are the qualifications to living full-time and she replied "Allie, you are full-time". I never burned my male clothes or tossed everything male out with the trash, all I did was slowly incorporate living as a female into my regular at-the-time-male life until eventually there wasn't anywhere I went or did as a male any more. It was a slow gradual process so adjusting was easy.
Um, I have been on HRT for well over a year with pleasant developments. Not quite what I was hoping for, but I'm still giving it time before I consider any changes (*cough*breastimplants*cough*). My family does -not- approve of this and I'm basically moving on without them. I can't stop and wait for them to accept me, I'm on this road, I'm far into the journey, I can't stop now. It's too late. I'm not your typical TS, I guess you could say. I am a mix of goth/metal/punk/girlie all into one. I'm also 6'6" and though I stand out as a result, I really don't care. I've grown a thick skin as a result of living part-time. Basically it takes a lot to offend me. Plus at my height, you really have to have courage to try and start something with me since I'm taller than most. When I have my boots on (combat boots) it's all the more intimidating. Some times I use that to my advantage. I have a tough-girlie image basically. I have 9 piercings, no tattoos. I wear black a lot. I don't really wear makeup often. I have hair that makes a lot of women jealous (read: curly). I'm a major flirt, but I only flirt with people who know I am TS. I can't be deceitful and risk becoming a statistic. I'm out to everyone important to me, out at work, etc.. work made a unisex bathroom just for me since I can't use the women's bathroom until after SRS (ugh..). I haven't had any laser yet..I'm trying to save up for it. Same thing with the name change. I don't have a wonderful well-paying job, so it's been a slow gradual transition for me. I don't mind. I'm not frantic about how I -need- SRS soon. I've come to terms with my body and my plans. I have this thing between my legs. I don't like it, I don't like using it, I do plan on having SRS but I know with my financial situation it's going to be awhile so I might as well be comfy in my body now since it's going to be a long journey. I equate my transition to the story of the tortoise and the hare....I'm the tortoise. slow and steady. I may not get there as quickly as other TS girls. I'm okay with that. I feel taking it slow gives me time and a chance to learn, know, and find out all the minor smaller details about living as a woman. I know the major stuff, but the little details are equally important and can sometimes get a person read when they don't realize it. I want to be well-prepared for when I have SRS. By the time I do have the surgery, I will be.
and yeah...I've gone on waaaaay too long about me.
so now I'll hush this intro up.
and my deeper connection to the TS community. I'm also a rape survivor, which happened when I first started out waaaay back in college. I created a website primarily for survivors and TS survivors since there isn't a site on the net. That URL, should you want to see it, is available by PM request.
