It's coming up to 7am just taken my levothyroxine, I hate those little pills they just stick to your tongue or part down the throat and it takes a gallon (English) of water to flush down and I have to take 2 of them to make up the dose. Today was good and went down with a single gulp each.
So I am snuggled back under the duvet cuddling my teddy bear, and thinking about yesterday. A frustrating day that in the past would have not felt so much so. But I have moved on.
The good parts of the day was my chats with my friends and granddaughter in law who by the fates is also called Kay. The bad and frustrating part was just being with my Kay. I really did not think this would ever happen but, and it has happened very quickly, I have fallen out of love with her.
She has ground me down to the point that the blinkers are off. It started with me getting home in the morning from my stop out Friday night. She was the first to say I should stay over and when forced to do so by my toy boy lol, I did it. Well in the morning she had a face like a wet afternoon, I could feel the resentment. I get this every time I go out or spend the night away.
I think she so hates me being away as she knows I am Jess. Back to how I feel. I am also resenting having to not be Jess when at home, and the banality of life at home. She does nuffin. Hardly ever wants to go out. Jess is a party girl, I am a party girl. I love to be with others, never stop talking and having fun.
I was chatting to a friend and having a laugh on the sofa, I could not help chuckling out loud, whatever K thought that I do not know, and I mentioned the day and a further story that I will relate in a mo, that jokingly, I have to dump her and if a txt was appropriate and the done thing these days.
The story that started that response was that I wanted to cook a nice dinner and she said she did not want it and wanted a KFC, she knows I cannot eat anything from there but I went out to get her some. Well the KFC is not easy to find as it lays back in a row of houses. I knew approx where it was and I was looking out for it as I drove down at 25mph, could not find it drove on and on thinking I know I have missed it.
So took the roundabout and can back along the road. Nuffin. Stopped at the petrol station to get the satnav out as I was getting desperate, OK it's 150m from the petrol station about where I I thought it was. Drove on to a shop in total darkness and in the dark was impossible to find. It was closed.
I phoned K as I thought OK fish and chips? In my head and I will be driving past on way home. Voice Mail, I tried 9 times and drove home. When I got back she said fish and chips would do so out I went again, Oh and it was raining.
Pretty much a last straw for me, though I did have F&C myself.
So what is the future, well short term, today I am myself again as I go out to a meet up of my HIFI friends, going dress to impress, already decided I am going to wear a lovely red dress. Got some new lippy too. Long term something has to change............
I am so tempted to come home in my dress lol
Hugs
Jessica xxx