In a post in this thread, I categorically said "Absolutely Not" In other words I want to remain a 'transsexual' forever. Why? There are a couple of reasons, one I'm a female, I want to remain a female forever and I have always been a female. Two, this is the closest I can ever be, to being a female after treatment.
A more pertinent or poignant question to ask is why us? The answer lies simply in nature. There is about 5% of us, including intersex people. (don't quote me on this figure it's just for illustration purposes only). Nature stuffed up or humans interfered in some way which caused the condition that we have. I accept my condition unconditionally.
Knowing this and accepting this one can seek out treatment that will alleviate these symptoms to some degree. My understanding over the years, when my condition reared its ugly head, I did not think twice about it, I just continued with my life. Eventually, I suppose it became to much and I did what I had to do without even realising what I was doing, I did not know at the time, where I was going, I did not know what I was doing, even I did not think about what I was doing.
Courtney G elaborated in one of her posts.
Quote from: Courtney G on January 10, 2024, 03:10:34 PMWe're trans because we're trans. As I'm fond of saying, I started my transition because I could not longer not start it. Everything was "fine" in my life, except for that longing that wouldn't go away. Starting to satisfy that longing has been a source of great joy. Pondering the consequences of this action has been a constant source of anxiety, a yin to my yang.
Thank you Courtney G for putting eloquently into words that describes what went on within me, without one realizing it.
The only difference, I had no anxiety whatsoever, no dysphoria per se, the longing was always there and eventually information about my condition and uncle saying "go and live as a female", gave me the impetuous to do what needed to be done. So I left family and friends and in doing so, I was prepared to lose everything, to go and live as a female.
In my case what needed to be done to relieve my symptoms, I had the following treatments, electrolysis to get rid of facial hair, female hormones to grow my breasts, anti testosterone injections to remove the damaging effects of balding and surgery so that I could function as a normal female. There are two treatments that I cannot change, my chromosomes or my body to bear children. This alone brings me to tears.
As TxSara says,
Quote from: TXSara on January 10, 2024, 11:33:05 AMIn retrospect, I feel like I have experienced a life that very few people in this world have the opportunity to experience. I wouldn't change the way things worked out even though life (even now) would be much easier.
I would say it this way
"In retrospect, I feel like I have experienced a life that very few people in this world have the opportunity to experience. I wouldn't change anything, the way things worked out, ever."Wishing you all the best for the future.
Kindest regards to one and all
Sarah B
PS Courtney G, you are never alone
PSS Edited to add 'prepared to lose everything'