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Jenn's Journey, Part 2

Started by Jenn104, January 03, 2024, 04:31:48 PM

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LoriDee

We will be rooting for you, Jenn!

I agree that you have the right attitude and mental toughness to get this done. Go, Jenn, go!
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Jenn104

Quote from: ChrissyRyan on May 13, 2024, 10:37:22 AMHave a great week Jenn!

Chrissy

Quote from: Iztaccihuatl on May 13, 2024, 11:02:52 PMNever give up - that's the right attitude for an athlete!

I am sure you'll do fine in the race and no hills, leg cramps or whatever else you could encounter is going to stop you.

You got this, Jenn!

Have a great race!

Hugs,

Heidemarie

Thanks to you both and all the well wishes coming with me on a grand -er- type 2 fun adventure...

~Jenn
"I want to be remembered as a woman ... who dared to be a catalyst of change."
                 - Shirley Chisolm

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Jenn104

Well


The weekend is here. I am off to my cycling event which is Sunday. I am grabbing a pasta dinner w/ my youngest in Manhattan tonight. Tomorrow is in-person credentialing and pre-event carbs. Sunday I will be lined up on the George Washington Bridge for a 7 am start. Yeah, I am gonna get up mad stupid early (and frankly, it messes up the times I change patches and take spiro. its the trans life on that.)

My mentor/riding friend/security blanket is a last minute scratch. I am a gonna hitch up my big girl panties and get it done. She and I had a long call last night, to go over the my weekend and ride. I have a plan and its all about following the plan. Plus my legs. I have good legs.

Seriously-- I feel a nervous respect for the course. I am under-trained on hills. Group ride dynamics, a high speed descent, and a technical descent have my attention. Bitches get stuff done.

and on that.. I am off. Enjoy the weekend one and all.

~Jenn
"I want to be remembered as a woman ... who dared to be a catalyst of change."
                 - Shirley Chisolm

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ChrissyRyan

Do you listen to music when you ride competitively or train?


Chrissy

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davina61

Have a good time dear, I will run the hot bath for after !
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D'Amalie

Of course you know this means war?!
Music is almost always going, especially in the garage!  I don't run anymore.
I like the bath and asper creme.

Like last week, I drove up to Montana (10 hours round trip)  just for the spectacular Aurora Borealis.
Music all the way.
Back 30 years ago, I'd run for hours with Pink Floyd on the Walkman.  Kind of difficult on the obstacle course though.
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LoriDee

Good luck, Jenn.
The Susan's Place Cheerleading Squad is rooting for you.

Hugs!
My Life is Based on a True Story.
https://www.susans.org/index.php/topic,247442.0.html

Maybe the journey isn't so much about becoming anything.
Maybe it's about un-becoming everything that isn't really you,
so you can be who you were meant to be in the first place.


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Jenn104

Quote from: ChrissyRyan on May 17, 2024, 09:39:41 AMDo you listen to music when you ride competitively or train?


Chrissy



When riding outside, no I don't use headphones for safety. Or music really.

When riding on the trainer, inside, yeah-- I have a wide variety of music. Everything from the Grateful Dead to hyperpop (especially 100 gecs).

~Jenn
"I want to be remembered as a woman ... who dared to be a catalyst of change."
                 - Shirley Chisolm

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Jenn104

Quote from: davina61 on May 17, 2024, 10:06:40 AMHave a good time dear, I will run the hot bath for after !

Quote from: LoriDee on May 17, 2024, 11:10:23 AMGood luck, Jenn.
The Susan's Place Cheerleading Squad is rooting for you.

Hugs!

Thanks! I drove in over the a few miles of the course.. and texted my friend "my legs don't like you anymore". HILLS! I am just going to grind it out.

~Jenn
"I want to be remembered as a woman ... who dared to be a catalyst of change."
                 - Shirley Chisolm

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Jenn104

Quote from: D'Amalie on May 17, 2024, 10:13:18 AMOf course you know this means war?!
Music is almost always going, especially in the garage!  I don't run anymore.
I like the bath and asper creme.

Like last week, I drove up to Montana (10 hours round trip)  just for the spectacular Aurora Borealis.
Music all the way.
Back 30 years ago, I'd run for hours with Pink Floyd on the Walkman.  Kind of difficult on the obstacle course though.

When working from home.. yes, I have a soundtrack. Its so well known people on calls even talk at my speaker for me. "Hey Sonos! stop". Biking or walking not so much. I live urban enough I need the feedback to not get hit. I am not that good a cyclist I can ignore the world around me. yet.

~Jenn
"I want to be remembered as a woman ... who dared to be a catalyst of change."
                 - Shirley Chisolm

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imallie

Good luck but mostly... have fun!
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Jenn104

Quote from: imallie on May 17, 2024, 08:33:37 PMGood luck but mostly... have fun!

Thanks.

I am watching teams - there are pros in the race - start morning rides. I am in awe on some level. There is a lot of energy. I like it.

I also admit my dysphoria is hugely triggered. I think it's natural, given the surroundings. I am just trying to ignore it, relax and enjoy. I have not felt this triggered in a long long time..

sigh. it's the trans life.

Jenn
"I want to be remembered as a woman ... who dared to be a catalyst of change."
                 - Shirley Chisolm

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Iztaccihuatl

Hi Jenn,

Just checking in to see how you did in your bicycle race? If I had to guess, I'd say you were sore from it all day yesterday and maybe you are still feeling it today. I hope it was a great Type 2 Fun activity and you are ready for more.

Watching out for that race report.

Hugs,

Heidemarie
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Jenn104

Quote from: Iztaccihuatl on Yesterday at 12:50:45 PMHi Jenn,

Just checking in to see how you did in your bicycle race? If I had to guess, I'd say you were sore from it all day yesterday and maybe you are still feeling it today. I hope it was a great Type 2 Fun activity and you are ready for more.

Watching out for that race report.

Hugs,

Heidemarie

Hey!

I had hoped to post before... but I think the site was down.

I had a great day! The camaraderie among riders was stellar. I wound up texting new besties all day yesterday. Yes. Yes I finished. I had a good first 45 miles, then fought muscle cramps and hills for 40. My daughter met me at the finish and I crossed in under 8 hours. 84.4 miles. 6300 feet of climbing, I got it done.

I am meeting friends tonight. will post a longer trip report tonight or tomorrow night.

thanks for asking.

Jenn
"I want to be remembered as a woman ... who dared to be a catalyst of change."
                 - Shirley Chisolm

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Iztaccihuatl

Congratulations on finishing and meeting your goal! Glad to hear that your first half of the race went really well.

Looking forward to your longer trip report!

Hugs,

Heidemarie
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Jenn104

When last we left our intrepid heroine...


So yes, the race went well. A few notes of the trip--


Fun on the way down to the race

I drove down to New Jersey from Boston. I stopped for gas. Apparently I was not moving fast enough. A woman from a camper with Texas plates hopped out of her car, scooted on over and grumps-- "move it you stupid bitch." Yep, I didnt get maam'd, I got bitched. I am sure she was puzzled I broke out laughing.

I drove about 5 or 6 miles on the course on the way in. Ummmmm yeah. I was a little intimidated.

The run up to the race
I drove Friday for a Sunday race. I grabbed dinner on the upper east side of manhattan Friday. Carb loading! A very passable carbonara. I saw her new apartment. A nice night!

I picked up credentials Saturday. The staff was polite to effuse, affirming. The was a small vendor expo. I met a lot of great people. Honestly, the vibe was 'good for us' and 'get it done' with a lot of respect for the course.

The hotel was a cycling paradise. At least three pro teams. A lot of pre-race buzz. Fun moment-- Saturday night every racer in the hotel not on a team did the same thing-- make a take out pasta and gatorade run. I walked in with mine and joined the party. I met people from 4 countries, thank you.

Race Day-- pre race
The race was Sunday. I woke at 3 ish.  Yes 3 am. Clean up. Eat. No liquids. Bike on the car. 5 mile drive to the start. A few racers were trickling in. Put on cycling shoes. Packed my post-race bag. Clicked in and pedaled a few turns on the parking lot. All good. A woman a few cars down and I decided to cycle to the check in together. My new bestie!

We checked in. The start was on the George Washington Bridge. The "last chance toilets" (yes! there was signage that said that) were well used. We picked up a third friend. We made a call to wait for sun up to get up to the start. We ate a last pre-race bar. Met a lot of people. Talked race plans. And.. up on the bridge at a quarter to six. The half mile up was amazing beyond words-- the three of us took it in. River, sky line. ~2000 bikes. We got pics. Met people from 6 or 7 countries.. and waited about an hour and a half to start...

The Race
We kicked off around 7:15 am. We lost each other but that's a race. I took about 15 minutes to get up to the start. Keep this in mind-- my race clock started when I crossed the start.

anyway.. a loop under the bridge (in Jersey!) short ride over city streets and down into palisades park. I got a rhythm pretty quick. Really a nice way to start. I got to the first named climb at ten miles feeling good, settled. I executed maybe the best climb of my life. A mile uphill, average grade of over 5%,.. and I did well. I found a great rhythm to the first rest stop at mile 17.

I stopped. Relieved myself. water and gatorade. I ate a little. In hindsight, I ate and drank about a third of what I actually needed. Stay tuned. this come back.

After leaving, the next 17 miles were rollers. I found a group and settled in. We took turns on the lead. Cruised. We broke up after about 10 miles-- different paces.  Lots of people cheering! A fun ride. I hot the second rest stop feeling on-plan and fresh. My cycling group was watching the race tracking-- I found out later they were out of their heads at this point, "SHE IS CRUSHING IT".

Fatal mistake ish at Stop 2-- I again didn't eat or drink enough.  Maybe a third of the need in hindsight.

anyway-- miles 34 to 52 have serious uphills and 2 named climbs, back to back between miles 42 and 48. So yeah, the ride gets serious here. I did ok on the minor hills up to the first climb. Good, not great. First climb starts at 42, ends at 44. I got it done, not the best, not the worst. A two mile slog up a hill isn't pretty but I got it done. I hydrated, ate at the top (road side, not a stop). The course takes a left and a steep down hill, straight at this point. 35 mph-white-knuckle-joy-ride-of-terror and done all too fast.

So I am basically 100 yards away from named climb 3-- 1 mile up and a technical descent on the other side. Two thirds of the way up, I cramped. I got off my bike. Walked up a third of a mile, drinking water.. and back at it for my first real speed descent with turns. Done. Pretty cool moment - dead ish legs and I did it. I decided I was finishing there.

I struggled along to rest stop three at 51. I was honestly not lucid enough to recall much. I was safe on my bike though. I did my mental check list often. Rest stop three is a blur except for the purple haired student and her friend with the inch long nails ("and I play softball with them!") friend. Lots of water and a little food. I learned what I need to hydrate too late. But I pressed on.

Miles 51 to 68 were good. I spun back to 92-93 rpms, got rid of my lactate acid build up. Rolling hills where I really cut loose. I can't say I felt good or had rhythm. I recovered. I dug in and decided I was finishing-- officially or unofficially.

So I roll into stop 4, the last on the course. I meet my friend from the bridge, who was a huge help. I thought I was flirting with a DQ on time. Nope-- "Jenn-- you have two hours, exact. just don't stop." I hydrated and got it on.

More rollers from miles 68 to 72. The last major climb. I got the last climb done, altho have little memory except screaming quads and being fair on my uphill pulls in a group. You crest a hill top at 75 ish miles and descend down into the park where the race starts. I remember bombing along at 23 mph. A bike path that was a blast. Crossing a highway.. and the left turn into the park. I figured I had about 20-25 minutes to make the cut off time and get a finishers medal.

yes. a finishers medal is a huge deal.

The end of the race is a very unfair mile and a half up hill. I'd figured out drafting by now. So I was on someone's wheel drafting and they pulled up. I dumped my bike left to avoid him. we both fell.. His bike was fine. My left shifer was slightly out of place. Nope. Nothing to do but go on. We walked a little and I rode on. I told him I'd carry my bike to finish at this point. I thought I'd lost my end time but it didnt' matter.

surprise surprise.

I finished. My daughter screaming for me at the finish. My name got announced.. and I got my finishers medal at the end of the finish chute. I thought I had an 8 hour cut off. Nope, until they strike the finish line, you get an official finish. Cool. Even cooler?  I was  less than a minute quicker than the time I wanted.. I made my time!!! 

Post race
We - my daughter and I grabbed a beer and a burger post-race at the finish party. Every finisher gets a medal. The camaraderie is fantastic. "YOU DID IT" is heard often. Its a big deal. Same back at the hotel. It only matters you finished and have your medal. Period.

I got my daughter back to the east side. we laughed-- always the dad, full day.. and you have to drive.

Thoughts?

I was under eating and drinking on the course. Lesson learned. I really learned some technique on the course, out of necessity. The bike shop people crushed my ride. Really done well. I called my mentor and thanked her. Sweet moment.

I am most proud of the fact my head was in the game all day. I never thought of quitting the race. Cramps.. pain, slow times. Nope. I was going to finish. I did.

Sorry to be disjointed. Its been a long day.

Jenn
"I want to be remembered as a woman ... who dared to be a catalyst of change."
                 - Shirley Chisolm


LoriDee

We had no doubts you could do it. Congrats! I think you know you had the right attitude going into it and was not about to give up. I admire that. Well done!
My Life is Based on a True Story.
https://www.susans.org/index.php/topic,247442.0.html

Maybe the journey isn't so much about becoming anything.
Maybe it's about un-becoming everything that isn't really you,
so you can be who you were meant to be in the first place.


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2024 - Voice Training
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imallie

Way to go Jenn! You set a long-term goal and hit it, nothing feels good like that kind of accomplishment! Whoo hoo!

Sorry about the dehydration. Cannot tell you how many times I've seen that sneak up and bite athletes of all ages, sizes and shapes. The good thing is, normally this is a lesson you learn once and don't forget! 😘

Congrats again! Hope your body is already on the mend!!!!

Love,
Allie
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