It's so hard to pick up and move forward knowing all my former history at Susan's is gone. A little history.
61 years old, living in north western NJ. Have a small farm and 2 horses. Also run a small home improvement company with a couple of employees.
Came out as trans MTF, in June 22 to my wife and a few friends. Circle grew and by Feb 23, I was out 100%. Started HRT on 8-25-22. Went through the usual thinning of skin, breast growth, greatly reduced muscle mass and strength. Lost weight, gained most of it back, trying to loose it again. Dam holidays! Hands and feet cold all the time now. Working hard on my voice which is very hard, even after a lot of professional training. I train every day but quickly forget and go back to my old voice when in conversation.
Coming out at a mature age was a bit challenging especially when living in the same small town all my life and now 61. I also own and run my own small business where my customers all know me by my male name. Been married to a wonderful wife for 35 years. How she is coping with this is beyond me. Almost all the people I have told and felt with have been very kind and understanding. If they say anything negative its behind my back and quite frankly who cares what they think.
I grew up in the 60-70s where parents felt a good spanking/beating would fix all my problems. I had a control freak mother who criticized everything from don't sit with your legs together, every body posture meant something, come your hair this way, wear these clothes, etc.. You don't want to be like 'THEM' do you? Always watching through a crack in the door to see what I was doing. It's amazing how much pain those early years effect, us the rest of our lives. Even writing this brings back many bad memories. Nuff said.
More about me. I love horseback ridding and own 2 horses which I love trail ridding whenever my wife and I get the chance. Fishing is another love which I don't get to as much as I would like. Something about being out in the woods or on the water that's good for the soul.
Transitioning: Started counseling before coming out, which helped greatly. HRT through an Endocrinologist. Have my bottom surgery, (vaginoplasty) scheduled for June 12 with Dr. Keith. Having hair removal for that done now. Having some hemeroids banded and fixed now per plastic surgeons advice. And in the process of getting the official name change done with a Feb date before the judge. So that's my life in a nutshell.