Ok I'll try to keep this organized, but I've been going crazy over this. I'm almost 3 years into my transition, and this month I started seeing breast growth for the first time in over a year at least. I was very excited to see this, but it didn't work out how I wanted.
I tried very hard to encourage the growth, I quit smoking, even coffee, and tried to eat at a surplus every day. Of course this ended up being one of the hardest months ever, and I relapsed several times into depression and self starvation. For context I have and ED called ARFID, which impacts my motivation to eat, especially when I'm mentally unwell.
My left breast has always lacked tissue below the areola, and I was getting pains there, signalling it was finally beginning to fill in. I'm sad to say at a low point I was ignoring this feeling, and then got that awful sensation of your body giving up on developing tissue, like kind of a burny feeling. Now my boobs are sore, especially my right, and it seems to be filling out, but my left one is no longer developing tissue where it was going to. I'm honestly very worried I blew my last chance to have a rounded out left breast.
The other factor is I've been on cyproterone for about 4 months, and I think this is what triggered the growth. But now I'm experiencing a progesterone-like filling out, and I'm worried I'll never have another growth spurt for breast duct tissue.
Has anyone else had this kind of experience, starving during a growth spurt, losing potential growth, has anyone come back from it? What are the chances stunted tissue can resume growth? Is that even possible?
