Hi Robby You wrote in your post:
Quote from: Robbyv213 on May 23, 2024, 04:54:41 PMI know I feel this way more and more. Even more so when I see my wife naked. I always tell her she has an amazing body, and I'm glad that she gives it to me and lets me enjoy it (sexually and non sexually) but deep down I wish it was my body. That I had as feminine of a body as she does. She thinks I'm just complementing her and I am but there's more to it than that on my end.
You are not alone or different in your thoughts in regards to the female body and I doubt it is no different from all the rest of us females, that they wish or admire some other aspect or attribute that another female has. I'm no different, I would like, slightly smaller feet, smaller head, different coloured eyes and of course much longer hair than I have now.
Quote from: Robbyv213 on May 23, 2024, 04:54:41 PMSince I am a very masculine guy, and have very masculine frame ( that my wife has said that most men would spend their lives to achieve) I know I will never be that feminine, I will never have that small slender feminine look with curves in all the right places. For a guys body I'm good, but I guess I just made the best with the cards I've been delt since I felt there's nothing I can do about it. So I'm sure as most of us have at some point or another tried to ignore or repress everything by being as masculine or macho of a man as we can be, but it never works.
Neither will I have that small slender feminine frame. It might be nice to have one like that, then again maybe not. I have got what I got and there is not much I can do about it and I have never really worried about it.
There were two things that worried me in the early stage of changing my life around, one was my adam's apple, I was self conscious about it, but it never was prominent, probably from lack of testosterone in my system and as time went by it never worried me, since there was nothing there really.
The second thing that I was self conscious about was my shoulders which were broad and of course my arm and shoulders had muscles, due to all the swimming training that I did. I stopped worrying about them when a certain female swimmer Lisa Curry Kenny was visiting our town and pool.
She was walking along the pool deck and I saw how big her shoulders were and muscular, she was wearing bathers. Well after that encounter, I never worried about my shoulders, except it took sometime for me to start wearing gowns and dresses that exposed my shoulders per se.
Quote from: Robbyv213 on May 23, 2024, 04:54:41 PMI feel the most envious when I see an attractive athletic woman at the gym. I feel I'll never be small and slender but there's a chance I could look like a female athlete or bodybuilder. So when I see a female like that, that's when it really hits me since I'm still here in a man's body and having to go as fast and my wife can handle any sort of transition.
Therein lies your answer, women come in all shapes and sizes and being envious is only human. Changing the features that you can to make yourself more feminine is the way to go and to accept your body the way it is.
Take care and all the best for the future.
Love and HugsSarah BOfficial Greeter@Robbyv213