Wow - so long since Mandy posted! I was timid and hesitant last year, as described it was the first time I had shared my dark secret in any way shape or form, when joining Susan's Things haven't changed that much. When I joined, I expected others to be universally out there and recommending to come out generally, with so many others living a fully transitioned life. It was a welcome dose of common sense when our sisters on Susan's suggested I only take steps I was comfortable with and that once revealed, it couldn't be re-bottled. Like other's describe, I have taken steps - feminising my appearance dress/ nails, hair - sometimes light makeup expecting some response or questionning. I even hung out last summer with white painted toenails - but noone asked or commented! (Years ago my wife said I would look great in black lingerie - but it was a while ago and somehow that conversation petered out). Maybe I needed to step it up (perhaps a conversation would be better, but I've been procrastinating for years.). I had a svelt long black dress and new 6 inch heals. The white nail polish went on my fingers and a bit of eye-liner for good measure. My wife had been out for the day. When she opened the door, she would notice this for sure. I realised this was not the way to do it and de-feminised. Still hiding.
