2 weeks ago I had my regular mammography scan.. I have had a couple now. No big deal. You go to a place, you plop your left then right breast on a xray plate - its flattened and they take a picture.
Mammography holds significant importance for transwomen as part of their overall health care regimen. While the focus of transition often centres on gender affirmation and related medical procedures, it's crucial to remember that certain health screenings, including mammograms, are essential. It is also, strangely affirming.
The day after my scan, the phone rang. A doctor informed me they had found a lump on my right breast. They wanted me to attend a clinic, as soon as possible. So they can look at it in more detail.
Right then my world froze...
I had been here before. A brain tumour a decade ago. A doctor advising me to get 'my affairs in order'...
I don't think I breathed while the doctor told me the address of the clinic, especially when the first line included the word 'oncology'.. I guess he was used to this type of call.. he reassured me and told me the address would be emailed to me as well.. good, I had not heard the rest of it.
for 24 hours I did not tell anyone. Then I approached my husband and told him the news. His face drained of colour, he tried to smile.. he put his arm around me.. but no words came from his mouth for quite a while. Yeah, this was happening.. oh gosh.
4 days passed and hubby had to cancel an important appointment, because I just could not take myself there.. I don't think I could cope if it was bad news. Then, I don't think he could either. But I needed my rock. So off we set.
The one thing about the US health service is their hospitals are great (the ones I have been in) and the people are lovely. I was taken through first for more xrays.. then sonograms and other tests.. these test hurt.. they took a while.. and then one of the nurses said 'I will get the main doctor now to talk to you'.. I had already braced myself. The doctor walks in - 'Nothing to worry about' she says with a grin.. 'Its quite benign - we are sure'... 'it is just your genetics.'
She goes on to tell me they have good images of it, will look at it each year carefully and keep and eye on it but it seems just to be part of how I developed.
A week of hell evaporated.. I walk out to hubby, he looks pensive.. 'all clear' I whisper.. and he exhales. Relief means we don't actually talk until we are in the car.
I will be back next year - I now have to go to this clinic for my tests as they recommend me to have the xray and sonogram at the same time and have someone on-site to look at them. It was scary, it was stressful but it was also potentially life saving..
I just want to stress that everyone who is on hormone therapy should have their mammograms from the age of 40. If you have a prostate, get that checked out too regularly.. these things can kill you, please look after yourself.