My life-long journey

[Jessica_Rose]

I may be a little late, but Happy Birthday!



Love always -- Jessica Rose

[MaryT]

I hope that the promise of a happy future gives you happiness today.

[CaringWhisper]

I have a high fever, it is with great difficulty that I am writing this post. Today is my birthday, and as a cruel mockery of fate, my daughter was beaten up by local children. I will definitely respond better (I saw your post Lilis), when I have the strength. For now, just thank you for the congratulations. The nervous breakdown.

[MaryT]

I am so sorry that you and your daughter are having to endure such things.  Please God bless you both.

[Sephirah]

You are Aquarius. That is actually very telling. Happy birthday, Whisper. I think I understand you a little bit better now.

(all those people who don't believe in astrology can vomit in their mouths at this point )

https://www.horoscope.com/zodiac-signs/aquarius

Check your messages.

[Sarah B]

Hi Caring Whisper

Happy Birthday to you from me, with hugz and I wish you and Kat, all the best for the future.

Best Wishes Always
Sarah B
Global Moderator
@CaringWhisper 

[Lilis]

I will definitely respond better (I saw your post Lilis), when I have the strength.

Oh my God, there's so much happening all at once.

No pressure, take your time and just try to get some rest. If you can, see a doctor, a fever is often a sign of an underlying health issue.

I'm so sorry about what happened to your daughter. Unfortunately, some children are taught from an early age that violence is a solution. I hope she's doing okay.

And lastly, Happy Birthday, CaringWhisper! 👸🏻🎂💞

[Sephirah]

Thank you, for caring. Doing what Susan's does best. She's going through a lot. They both are. Things that... we can't even really imagine. Let alone know how to deal with.

[Sarah B]

Hi Caring Whisper

I'm sorry to hear that Katya was bullied at school.  For Katya's sake, she needs to learn self-defense.  One of my nephews was in a similar predicament and all of my brothers children in that family learnt self-defense.  Suffice to say it it helped him in several fights.

I hope you get better soon

Take care and I hope things turn out well for you and Katya

Best Wishes Always
Sarah B
Global Moderator
@CaringWhisper 

[MaryT]

Hi Caring Whisper

I'm sorry to hear that Katya was bullied at school.  For Katya's sake, she needs to learn self-defense.  One of my nephews was in a similar predicament and all of my brothers children in that family learnt self-defense.  Suffice to say it it helped him in several fights.

I hope you get better soon

Take care and I hope things turn out well for you and Katya

Best Wishes Always
Sarah B
Global Moderator
@CaringWhisper 

I think that any self-defence skills can be useful as long as the pupil is taught when to use them, which is a nebulous subject.  An encounter in which a bully originally intended only to humiliate his or her victim could lead to the victim being injured if the bully is resisted by force.  Even world champion fighters sometimes lose.  For all but really expert martial artists, I think that it is a good idea to presume that one's potential opponent or opponents have the advantage, so the victim shouldn't use his or her skills unless injury would otherwise be highly likely.

[CaringWhisper]

The situation here is more and more grim with every month. Water's my element. It's very difficult for us psychologically, and strength comes in waves, like the ebb and flow of the tides. When the tide goes out, the strength leaves and exposes the bare sand of despair. And back in the cycle. This may be late, but thank you for the congratulations, my friends.

What are your spiritual practices, if you don't mind sharing?

I tried many spiritual practices, but I couldn't stray far from the religious culture I was born into. When I try something different, I feel self-deceived. I pray, and try to feel love for God by identifying him as the Absolute. Absolute love, absolute trust, absolute peace of mind. A calmness in the face of an absolute abyss, where my mind is unable to realize the distance to the walls or the ground of this abyss. I feel the spirit of this great power on the outskirts of the city, in empty dilapidated houses, in an abandoned park with crumbling sculptures, in the barking of dangerous stray dogs somewhere in the background of the alleys, in the morning fog. I'd be more afraid of being trapped in a small space where every corner is known to me. The abyss is unexplored and that is why it gives me hope.

For Katya's sake, she needs to learn self-defense.

We can only defend ourselves when we have the chance. Hyenas don't attack alone, and if they are alone, they don't attack. When the immature minds clumps together in packs, there is little humanity left there. Even pepper spray won't stop the whole pack if the victim is alone.

[Lori Dee]

The situation here is more and more grim with every month. Water's my element. It's very difficult for us psychologically, and strength comes in waves, like the ebb and flow of the tides. When the tide goes out, the strength leaves and exposes the bare sand of despair. And back in the cycle.

Hope lies in the knowledge that the ebb and flow are like the swing of the pendulum. No matter how far away it goes, it will return. It cannot have one without the other. The trial is enduring the extremes.

Water seeks its own level.

I hope things come back your way very soon. Rest when you can and build your strength for the next wave. Either to fight it or ride it.

[CaringWhisper]

Hope lies in the knowledge

Nothing and no one can help me anymore. Blind hope can be more destructive than despair, it kills the last of my strength, dries me dry. I've realized now that sudden changes, ups and downs, are bad for me. I will stay in a stable, dark state, trying to find balance in falling into the abyss. I don't need spring, I'm not ready for it yet. I am too strong to change the harsh blizzards of winter for the warm days of spring.

Not for me comes spring,
Not for me a river will spill.
There is a darling's heart clogged
With delightful feelings - not for me.
 
Not for me flowering gardens,
In the valley blooming grove,
There nightingale meets spring,
He will sing not for me.
 
Not for me comes Easter,
At the table all relatives will gather,
"Christ is risen" shall pour from the lips
Easter day is not for me.
 
Not for me the flowers bloom,
The fragrant rose will fade
Pick a flower and it will whither
Such a life is not for me.
(с) Molchanov

[Lori Dee]

When I was much younger, I met a wise Japanese man. He always seemed so cheerful and full of hope. I was going through a rough point in my life and we talked about it.

He told me to think about all of the obstacles I have ever faced in my life. Think about the hard times, and we all have many. Think about how many and yet not one of them ever beat you. They did not win! And the proof of that is that you are here right now, ready to take on the next fight. They did not beat you, and they never will. You will find a way through. Someone will help you find a way through. Or maybe the problems resolve themselves.

The point is that the problems you faced all those years ago are gone now. Yes, now you have new things to work through. That is life. It tests us. It teaches us... if we learn from what we experienced in the past.

I am a million miles away from you so there is no way that I can know all of the details of what you go through each day. I can imagine, but only imagine. And my heart reaches out to you hoping to lift your spirits just enough for you to find that spark that I know you still have. And hopefully with it, a determination and resolve that "this too shall pass".

Hang in there, sister. We all care and wish you all the best.

[Lilis]

I tried many spiritual practices, but I couldn't stray far from the religious culture I was born into. When I try something different, I feel self-deceived. I pray, and try to feel love for God by identifying him as the Absolute. Absolute love, absolute trust, absolute peace of mind. A calmness in the face of an absolute abyss, where my mind is unable to realize the distance to the walls or the ground of this abyss. I feel the spirit of this great power on the outskirts of the city, in empty dilapidated houses, in an abandoned park with crumbling sculptures, in the barking of dangerous stray dogs somewhere in the background of the alleys, in the morning fog. I'd be more afraid of being trapped in a small space where every corner is known to me. The abyss is unexplored and that is why it gives me hope.

Your description is so vivid and thought provoking. It sounds like you find meaning even in the mystery and vastness of the unknown, such a unique way to experience spirituality. I hope that, even in the abyss, you find moments of peace and connection. If you ever feel weighed down by it, do you express those feelings through your artwork?

With warmth,

"Everything Is Possible!" 🫂💗


~ Lilis

[Lilis]

Nothing and no one can help me anymore. Blind hope can be more destructive than despair, it kills the last of my strength, dries me dry.

I don't need spring, I'm not ready for it yet. I am too strong to change the harsh blizzards of winter for the warm days of spring.

I hear you, I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I won't offer empty hope, but I will remind you that even in the darkest winters, there is still warmth to be found even if just in the quiet presence of someone who cares.

Seasons do change, whether we feel ready for them or not. And even if spring doesn't feel like it's for you right now, that doesn't mean it won't ever be.

With warmth,

"Everything Is Possible!" 🫂💗


~ Lilis

[CaringWhisper]

Your description is so vivid and thought provoking. It sounds like you find meaning even in the mystery and vastness of the unknown, such a unique way to experience spirituality. I hope that, even in the abyss, you find moments of peace and connection. If you ever feel weighed down by it, do you express those feelings through your artwork?

The city noise and pace drowns out my inner self, I think every person knows that feeling. In abandoned places I feel myself again, if I purpose to experience this emptiness sensually, it turns out to be not so lifeless. I never draw the abyss, do not spill out my feelings, otherwise the abyss will look back at me, it's best to keep Pandora's Box closed.  If I draw, it is either simple clear images or repetition of nature, the experience of creating the beautiful is healing.

Hang in there, sister. We all care and wish you all the best.

I won't offer empty hope, but I will remind you that even in the darkest winters, there is still warmth to be found even if just in the quiet presence of someone who cares.

Thank you friends. I take public transportation. There are times in the winter when I have to wait for a shuttle bus at an open cold stop. I am forced to dress nicely, there is no way to wear a warm ski suit and an ushanka hat. And I realized that the more intensely I move, the more my clothes gapes away from my body, letting the cold in under my coat, and further under my skirt. It's much more comfortable to stay calm, conserve heat, and keep the gaps between my clothes and my body closed. There is no better warmth than your own. Hope is a strong emotion that requires a lot of emotional effort and that's why it's hard to draw strength from it. In my experience I realize that in difficult situations it is better to save my emotions, I am all in myself, in my own hands.

Everything is possible, if you're sure of your abilities. I re-forged myself emotionally. Thank you for letting me express myself, I sincerely wish the best for all of you my friends, and support you in your difficult times.

[Lilis]

Everything is possible, if you're sure of your abilities. I re-forged myself emotionally. Thank you for letting me express myself, I sincerely wish the best for all of you my friends, and support you in your difficult times.

Yes, 🫂💓

[Sephirah]

Whisper, you are one of the strongest people I know. As is your little girl.

Sending you a massive squeezy hug. <3

[CaringWhisper]

I tried to convey my state of mind today with one photo. Spring has sprung and the snow has melted, but the trees are not yet covered with leaves. They stand gloomy, stretching their gaunt arms to the sky, as if suffering the agony of a soul in hell. Greetings from hell to all of you. No, I haven't given up, I'm not broken, I feel a firmness of nature and self-confidence. I'm just being honest with myself and expressing my inner self as it is, not trying to sugarcoat anything or smooth the edges. This kind of self-expression soothes my soul.

Retrowave is playing inside me today, that's the mood I'm in.


In good news, we may be leaving this place soon.