Most of you know, I'm a member of the chat staff. Being in that position, I meet a lot of different people. I hear a lot of different stories from people that classify at different spots in the transgender spectrum; be it CD, TV, TS, etc.
That said...I was talking to someone recently, relating my own story, and seriously thinking about where I classify. This past summer, I started hormones and then stopped a few months later. One reason for stopping was finances. But the big one, was me simply facing my own reality. My own reality being that I don't NEED hormones in order to feel human. I don't NEED SRS to feel human. What I'd like to talk about, is the middle ground, for me. Coming to find a balance that I'm comfortable living with.
My middle ground is that I live fairly androgynously and go out fully female sometimes. By androgynous, I mean that my everyday wardrobe consists of female clothes, and "unisex" looking clothing. Most of the jewelry I wear is unisex or female based.
All of this realization and facing my own reality was important because I almost continued on hormones. My point is...that I don't hear too much of that story. That someone was on hormones, and realized that they're comfortable without hormones. I suppose I feel the need to bring that up because maybe, there will be another person out there who goes through the same struggle.
As always, therapy is recommended...and that's WHY therapy is recommended. This next statement is based purely in MY experience... Looking back, me wanting to fully transition wasn't based solely in a need to be female. It was based on a desire to escape from myself. Don't get me wrong, I feel I have a strong feminine side, but it doesn't overcome me to the point where I feel a need to fully transition.
So, what's your reality?
