Been a minute hasn't it?
Life got/gets busy. I changed jobs and that's kept me crazy busy. Loved lots about my old job (predictable travel where Jamie got to easily come with me), the schedule wasn't too bad, good customers...but i hated one major deal-my now former boss was a massive prick, and was getting promoted. my options were endure and wait for him to fire me because he's a moron, or leave.
so i left.
the upside? old company was a bit ass backwards with their thoughts and beliefs. quiet about it, did "just enough" to not get flamed.
new company? couldn't be much more open and accepting. when filling in my new hire insurance stuff, the first page, with ZERO hunting, is all LGBTQ services and support, and let me tell you, i could not have planned it any better if i had tried.
downside? less travel, nothing predictable, so Jamie is sort of on hiatus. there's part of me that thinks i am going to sneak bits and pieces into the daily life and just be me, but we shall see.
the confusing part? the spouse. she is all over the map. still not talking about Jamie, pretty sure she's thinking that got put away for good because she isn't talking about it (ostrich syndrome, yay). and while i am like, ok, we are close to over, then shes like, hey we should travel more and be intimate more (then we don't do either, but she talked about it i guess). very confusing, and she blames so much of it on "the change".
i will say i think i am getting a wee bit less cautious about things, so i expect to slip.
i came out to another friend...she and i have been chatting on twitter for years, both as my male ID and Jamie, because one day i slipped and messaged her from Jamie's account and just went with it and finally just came out. didn't really think i would, but then it seemed like a good idea. bummer is, i wanted to come out in person, but travel issues made that near impossible. went totally good though.
i had a chat with a new coworker as we drove home from the office one day, landed on trans topics somehow, and i just left it as "the trans folks i know just want to peacefully exist". which is kinda me in a nutshell. i then also showed off a piece of company swag i'd bought, a logo pin we can wear, and i happened to get a couple including the pride one. not hiding it, not saying why i had it, and he didn't ask or care. also joined our employee pride group, even if i am currently only doing so as an apparent ally.
yes, the home stuff will surely hit the fan spectacularly at some point, but all the rest of the signs are there that my next work chapter could be Jamie's actual grand reveal. i mean, great insurance that will cover it...i am back in manhattan so i could have a far easier time hitting up a doctor of choice....even a massive chunk covered for post-surgery recovery stays...
pinch me, this girl might be dreaming.
