Annaliese's journey

[Mrs. Oliphant]

Well like I said I had a very busy week, both emotionally and physically.

You certainly have, Annaliese! And still looking good. Greatly enjoy sharing your journey with you. I'm sure you and your therapist will hit it off at first sight. I fully understand; I would not be able to share with a male therapist with the same degree of intimacy I share with my female therapist.

[Lilis]

Here we are the the 5th of May Cinco De Mayo. For me this is a celebration of mini wins for the past week. I started the week very anxious and in a funk. I was constantly looking too deep into my thoughts. I know I wanted to handle this journey by myself. I really thought I could handle it. The more I kept thinking how I would get through this the more lost I became. I would research, read, listen, and overthink. This was giving me migraines. I realized I could not do this alone.

On Monday,  I started a search for therapist in my area that I could reach out to. I had to ensure that I could find one that my insurance would cover. I was surprised that I was striking out everywhere I was looking
This was really bothering me as this area is not a small are. It is a major city in most aspects. I found several that would provide online therapy  and were lbgqt friendly but no in-person. Or the few I found only took out of service insurance. I was striking out.

Finally on Thursday I finally found a place, I was relieved. I was set up with an appointment with a male therapist.  I honestly did not feel comfortable with this and requested a female therapist.  I don't know why but I can't discuss these feelings with another man. I have my first appointment on Wednesday 7 May. I can't wait to be honest.

So I am so relieved that I can now finally talk to someone about this with. That is huge for me. Maybe I will sleep better now.

I also attended my first support group last Wednesday. It was an online zoom group. I really enjoyed it. I felt so at ease and comfortable.  I thought I would feel out of place, but I didn't.  I look forward to next months meeting.  Perhaps after a few zoom meetings I will attend the in-person meetings.

On Wednesday I also had my blood work done for my hrt levels. This part was also a bit good. My levels did progress some in a positive way.
My testerone went from 470 to 290.
My Estradiol went from 27 to 63.1
I meet with my provider on 23 to discuss results. I can't wait.

Had my first Motaf AY laser removal on Friday for my legs. Now all my body hair has finally completed step 1of laser hair removal 😊 go back in 6 and 8 week intervals to maintain and finish.

I also lost 4.1 pounds since my last blog. But I am afraid it was muscle weight.  I need to work on that. I am now down to 171.5
And today I got the courage to post my picture on my profile here, thanks to the beautiful Lilis. She was my main reason I posted it. I drew from her strength.

Well like I said I had a very busy week, both emotionally and physically.

Well that is all for my weekly blog.

Tremendous progress, Annaliese! Congratulations on reaching out to a therapist and booking your first session.

- Lilis 💗

[tgirlamg]

Annaliese!!!

Congrats on the wonderful progress and I Love your beautiful new avatar!... Keep doing what your doing sister!!!

Onward!

A💕

[Annaliese]

Just got back from a visit with my therapist.  This one hour was the best hour of the last two months.  😊 It was such a relief to talk to someone.

[tgirlamg]

Just got back from a visit with my therapist.  This one hour was the best hour of the last two months.  😊 It was such a relief to talk to someone.

Annaliese!

That's Wonderful Sister... Putting all the stuff out there that has burdened us for a lifetime is a powerful and liberating thing indeed! 🤗 Well Done Girl!!!

Onward!

Ashley 💕

[Sephirah]

You are gorgeous, Anna. Honestly all you girls are. Kinda jealous, honestly. And you're taking lots of very big steps.

Not least of which is the realisation that not only are we not built for... but we don't have to do this stuff alone. There is no shame in reaching out. That's a lifetime of dude conditioning. And one of the first things that it's kind of helpful to get past. We are stronger together, always. No matter who you are.

If you're ever in a place with no one immediately around, shoot me a PM okay? If there's stuff you just want to get out. I can't promise I'll reply in a timely fashion because I have to kind of store up energy to come here and... well.. function. But I can promise that I'll get back to you eventually. But sometimes it just helps to have a sounding board. And to just know that you aren't, and don't have to be alone with any of this. <3