Hi AnneMy name is
Sarah and I would also like to formally, Welcome you to Susan's Place!
I see that other members of Susan's have also welcomed you as well.
Quote from: Anne_lifetrip on April 09, 2025, 03:57:12 PMI have just activated my account and I believe that the first thing to do is to introduce yourself.
I am a trans woman (MTF), on my way there, fighting many demons, inner and outer ones. Making many mistakes in the way, although some have been told over and over by those of you lovely women.
It's brave of you to start by introducing yourself and sharing openly. The journey you are on is not easy and acknowledging both the challenges and the support you have found here shows strength and humility. You are not alone in making mistakes along the way, many of us have done the same and learned through experience. You are in good company.
Quote from: Anne_lifetrip on April 09, 2025, 03:57:12 PMMy positive areas is that I am certain of who I am and that my physical body does not represent me. I have known this since I am 6 and battled against it for many years. I come from a conservative family and trans people are ... well... "not people" or "sick people"...so I grinded my way to adulthood.
That sense of certainty about who you are is powerful, especially when it has been clear since childhood. Coming from a background where your identity was not accepted takes tremendous strength to survive and still be standing with clarity. You have fought hard to be true to yourself, and that deserves respect. I have know since I was four or five that I wanted to be a girl and as you are aware we are not alone in those thoughts
Quote from: Anne_lifetrip on April 09, 2025, 03:57:12 PMThere, with my economical independence I started going to therapy and came out to my family...which stopped talking to me. As only child, after some months they started talking back, and took my comments as "things he says but does note believe"...so big crash there.
It's heart breaking when family refuses to take your truth seriously. Gaining independence and seeking therapy were important steps, and even though the reaction was painful, you're still standing. That says so much about your resilience.
Rebuilding relationships can take time and sometimes they never return to what we hope, but you're doing the right thing by focusing on your well being. I have never come out, I'm still in the closet so to speak, my family did find out and they have accepted me unconditionally.
Quote from: Anne_lifetrip on April 09, 2025, 03:57:12 PMAnd day by day I am changing, slightly every day. I have had Laser all over my body (not yet done, but getting there) and feel better after every session. I am growing my long hair and already have a lovely pony tail and keeping it growing...my objective is to reach my breasts.
It's beautiful to hear how you're finding joy and confidence in each small step. I have long hair and I know how much it represents who I am. Laser and hair growth may seem like details to others, but they are milestones in expressing yourself and feeling comfortable in your own skin.
You are taking control in meaningful ways, and it shows. You are lucky in that sense, because I never had 'body laser' or whatever in my time, but I was lucky in the sense I did not have much.
Quote from: Anne_lifetrip on April 09, 2025, 03:57:12 PMNow, I am aware that I am not doing some things right...auto-medication (problem of being from the medical background is that we think we know it all). and some other things, that will share in time with you all in time.
It's good that you're aware and honest about the risks. Even with medical knowledge, auto-medication can be dangerous. You are among people who understand the temptation, but also want the best for you.
When you are ready, sharing those parts of your experience could be valuable for others too. So as you know it makes sense to find a specialist that deals with gender identity and practices informed consent and in the long run you will be in a better place.
Quote from: Anne_lifetrip on April 09, 2025, 03:57:12 PMEver since, and now in my 40s, I have been more and more enjoying myself as Anne. The more I am Anne, the happier I feel...but, as you may have guessed, I am not 100% out.
It's never too late to find happiness in who you are. Embracing Anne at your own pace is something to celebrate. I have always enjoyed being Sarah when I changed my life around and that feeling of being feminine along with it has not dulled over the years. Not being fully out does not make you any less valid or real, it just reflects the reality many face.
Every step you have taken toward being yourself is meaningful. As I have mentioned I'm not out and never have been and that is the way I like it. So you do not have to out yourself and by doing so you will avoid the ramifications of doing so.
Quote from: Anne_lifetrip on April 09, 2025, 03:57:12 PMI have really enjoyed reading and following this forum for some time and I am happy to be here, introducing myself.
We're glad you are here too. It takes courage to stop observing and start sharing. You have already brought something thoughtful and sincere to the community just by showing up as yourself.
Quote from: Anne_lifetrip on April 09, 2025, 03:57:12 PMThank you all for this space. 
Love and kisses to all of you lovely women.
You are more than welcome and thank you for your kindness. You are joining a supportive space full of understanding and experience. We look forward to hearing more from you as you continue becoming even more yourself.
Once you feel comfortable here, it would be appreciated if you add a little bit more about yourself in the other forums and threads. I would appreciate it very much as, I'm always interested in learning something new about new members.
In addition members of Susan's will more than likely will discuss problems or issues that are similar to yours as most have experienced these issues as well.
Take care and all the best for the future.
Once again, Welcome to Susan's Place!Best Wishes AlwaysSarah BGlobal Moderator@Devlyn @Jessica_Rose @Mariah @Northern Star Girl @Lori Dee @ Anne_lifetrip
