Okay. That makes more sense to me. So my mistake was accepting one that said, "I'm open minded" versus the one who specializes in it.
Not that I don't wanna drop my therapist. At least this guy LISTENS and understands me. My shrink however... The who who can prescribe, I most likely will...
He's talking about my unstable mood needing treatment first, and I don't seen an instability. I see a constant without variables now. Constant CRAP with glimmers of hope.

I had some glimmers, and then a best friend of mine died after New Years. I'm ALWAYS depressed. I mean, yes... I have yet to have a bipolar episode yet, but I've already agreed to let my mom put me in a hospital if I really am bipolar. I've agreed to sign a contract in blood even to validate her authority. Ahhh....
The guys thinking lithium and then an antidepressant and possibly ADHD medication. Its annoying as hell cause that would take months to conclusively see any good points. Gender things are at the bottom of his list, which is unfortunate considering its one of my biggest issues and the "mood instability" would take quite a while to fix.
... I mean. I honestly don't think I'm a classic bipolar. I hope not. Its entirely possible, its just that with the amount of caffeine I've consumed, which almost equals speeds stimulating qualities, I doubt I can EVER get an episode.
As for gender. Even if I was persuaded to not go through with treatment right away, at least I'd be able to check in with the right people.
Thanks for the list. I'm gonna check it out. I wish there was someone who took Connecticare cause we're not that rich...