Alana,
I agree that it is hard to be hiding a feminized body after about a year for sure, but less time for others. You can have people wonder if you are female or male because your body may not have fully transitioned. With effort one can hide your changes to some extent if you want to do so but that is not something most of want to do.
The softer skin is wonderful. I wish I was prettier but at least I look at my body and it does appear that I more feminine than masculine.
You will need to adjust to this change to a female appearance. People around you will notice changes. They might not ask you if you are transitioning but they may wonder, at least they will see that "something is different now" if you have not outed yourself to them.
Of course, if you present as female these changes are most welcome. If you do not, that can be problematic.
I have had MTF therapy sessions that seriously discussed the need for self adjustment, it is part of self acceptance. There is more much than looks too. As you have more real life experience as a woman there are a lot of adjustments. I went slowly, not working out as good as I wanted it to be, however, it is much better now.
I hope your journey goes well, and remember, there are no standard timetables. Take a pause as needed. Take some new steps as you are comfortable and it is practical to do so.
Yes, you can detransition but I would imagine that would be very difficult for most, but right for some.
It is exciting to see body changes. I thought my breast growth topped out but was surprised later on by another spurt. I still have very little hip expansion though but better rounded thighs and a little rounder bottom sure beats that flat butt look. Wish there was more, but not lots and lots.
Eventually, you will decide how open you wish to be with others. There are levels of openness.
Family, friends, coworkers, those you do not know, etc. You may decide to be more of an activist or be a more private MTF. I just like blending in and being me. Ideally the world would know me only as a woman and the past is not brought up but I am unsure if that result could ever happen in today's society.
Hugs,
Chrissy
