Alana's Journey

[ChrissyRyan]

I never posted this last Friday since I was busy at work all night... last Friday was my 120 day of being on hormones. I can't believe how fast time has gone. Being on hormones has gone better than I was expecting. There's been a few ups and down, some moodiness, and a bit of crying, but I'm feeling the happiest I've felt in ages. I'm definitely seeing changes. They're subtle, but there.

Yay!

[Alana Ashleigh]

Getting 'in touch' with your emotions after decades of repressing them is quite a roller coaster. They will calm down eventually. I've found that if I'm telling someone an emotional story, closing my eyes helps me control my emotions.

Be prepared for sudden, unexpected rounds of euphoria. The first time I experienced one, it was a bit frightening.

I loved wearing bras initially. They are so affirming! After a few years, I realized how hot they were in the summer. I've stopped wearing them now, except for special occasions.

Love always -- Jessica Rose

I experienced a moment of euphoria like that a few weeks ago. It felt like I was drunk. It was an interesting experience. I've just tried to enjoy and appreciate the moments of euphoria, or little moments of femininity when they come.

[Alana Ashleigh]

I've been feeling a bit conflicted the last few days. I'm definitely seeing my body shape change. My shape is becoming more feminine. I'm ecstatic that it's happening, but at the same time, I feel weird that it's happening. I'm not sure why I'm feeling this way.

[Maid Marion]

I've been feeling a bit conflicted the last few days. I'm definitely seeing my body shape change. My shape is becoming more feminine. I'm ecstatic that it's happening, but at the same time, I feel weird that it's happening. I'm not sure why I'm feeling this way.

Change is hard. 

It means that you have gone through a door and closed it.  It won't open ever again.

Marion

[Lilis]

I'm ecstatic that it's happening, but at the same time, I feel weird that it's happening.

I'm not sure why I'm feeling this way.

Hey, I remember feeling the exact same way when changes started showing, so excited but also kinda like, whoa, is this real!

It felt like I was in a bit of shock.

What helped me was talking it through with my doctor and therapist.

They reminded me that sometimes our minds just need a little more time to process what's happening in our bodies. Once I understood that, it became so much easier to celebrate the good stuff.

You're doing great, Alana, and I think it's worth mentioning to your team so you can fully enjoy this ride 💕


~ Lilis 🌷