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Started by Jen T., July 28, 2025, 07:47:21 PM

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Jen T.

I saw my therapist today for the first "official" session (the last time was just an "intake" appointment so they could match me with the right therapist). I won't get into specifics but I will say I feel incredible. Having an open, honest, in-depth and in-person conversation with someone other than myself is just about the best thing ever!

Also, as we were wrapping up she tells me that she's going to send me a list of things like reading materials and links to a few things that I might find helpful. I told her about finding Susan's Place a few weeks ago and she lit up. She said that this site was on her list of recommendations. Looks like I came to the right place! 🩷

Peace, love and happiness,

Jen

Maid Marion

Hi  Jen,

Great to hear you found someone  you can talk to!

Marion

tgirlamg

Awesomeness Girl!... Kudos on this step forward towards building the life you want! Amazing things await!

Onward Brave Sister!

Ashley 💕
"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment" ... Ralph Waldo Emerson 🌸

"The individual has always had to struggle from being overwhelmed by the tribe... But, no price is too high for the privilege of owning yourself" ... Rudyard Kipling 🌸

Let go of the things that no longer serve you... Let go of the pretense of the false persona, it is not you... Let go of the armor that you have worn for a lifetime, to serve the expectations of others and, to protect the woman inside... She needs protection no longer.... She is tired of hiding and more courageous than you know... Let her prove that to you....Let her step out of the dark and feel the light upon her face.... amg🌸

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Jen T.

Time has a way of taking time,
And loneliness is not only felt by fools...
Megadeth- In My Darkest Hour


Lately I feel like time is standing still. So still in fact, that it's taken me fully ten minutes to write these first two sentences. I can't seem to find the words to articulate what I'm thinking and feeling.

One. Hour. Later.

If I could wave my magic wand
I'd make everything all right
RUSH- Presto


I know what my ultimate goal is. If I didn't I wouldn't be here. At least, I know right now what that goal is. I can't say it won't evolve over time. I'm fairly confident that it won't, though. I mentioned in my earlier post about nervous excitement. It makes me wish I had a magic wand to wave around so I could transport myself to that day when I finally step out into the world as the woman I know I'm meant to be. I wish I could meet that version of Jen and ask her for advice. How did she conquer the fear and uncertainty? How did she face all the challenges that come with transitioning? How did she celebrate all the milestones? Did any of her loved ones stick by her through it all?

It is that last question that paralyzes me with fear.

I cannot do this alone. I don't know how I'll find the strength if my family rejects me. So here I am, eager and excited to get started and speed down that road towards my goal... but I'm stuck in neutral.

I realize that got a little heavy for a minute. I feel like I need to point out that I'm not in a dark place. Believe me, I know fully well what depression-fueled crisis feels like and this isn't it. On the contrary, despite all of my fear I feel optimistic. Hopeful. Impatient.

I'm ready to go; I just gotta figure out how to get this broken-down old lemon in gear.

Where did I put that magic wand...

tgirlamg

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As we keep moving forward... transforming our personal reality... Seeing ourself, our place in the world and our place amongst others through new eyes... experiencing life in ways we never dreamed could truly be ours to enjoy... and seeing that we can make the impossible... possible... We realize that we never needed a magic wand... We ARE the magic wand! 🤗

Onward Brave Sister!

Ashley 💕
"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment" ... Ralph Waldo Emerson 🌸

"The individual has always had to struggle from being overwhelmed by the tribe... But, no price is too high for the privilege of owning yourself" ... Rudyard Kipling 🌸

Let go of the things that no longer serve you... Let go of the pretense of the false persona, it is not you... Let go of the armor that you have worn for a lifetime, to serve the expectations of others and, to protect the woman inside... She needs protection no longer.... She is tired of hiding and more courageous than you know... Let her prove that to you....Let her step out of the dark and feel the light upon her face.... amg🌸

Ashley's Corner: https://www.susans.org/index.php/topic,247549.0.html 🌻

Lori Dee

Quote from: tgirlamg on Yesterday at 11:02:11 PMWe realize that we never needed a magic wand... We ARE the magic wand!

That is beautiful, Ashley!
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Quote from: Jen T. on Yesterday at 10:44:36 PMHow did she conquer the fear and uncertainty? How did she face all the challenges that come with transitioning? How did she celebrate all the milestones? Did any of her loved ones stick by her through it all?

When I began my journey, I had the same fears. Hiding my soul for decades had driven me to a dark place. My only options were to fall deeper into darkness, or to release my soul into the light. Only one of those options had the potential of continued existence. I took a leap of faith, faith in myself to overcome any obstacles. I also believed in my strength, the strength of the woman who had been trapped in darkness her entire life. It was she who cracked the shell of darkness.

I was certain many of those who loved the person I was would forsake the person I would become. I told them my truth, then gave them time. No lectures, no deadlines, just time for them to become familiar with who I was becoming. I did lose a sister-in-law, and a few cousins, but everyone else eventually accepted and supported me. My wife and I recently celebrated our 41st Anniversary.

Before I transitioned, I rarely smiled, and I never showed my teeth. Now I smile every day, and occasionally experience a few moments of euphoria when I think about what I have accomplished. Allowing myself to become the person I should have been, instead of the person everyone else expected me to be, is the best celebration of all.

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ChrissyRyan

I am happy that I have transitioned.  There have been some problems.  It is better now for sure.

It is like a weight has been taken away.  It is not all a bed of roses however.  I do not always pass.  Enough though.  It is the voice I think more than anything.


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Always stay cheerful, be polite, kind, and understanding. Accepting yourself as the woman you are is very liberating.  Never underestimate the appreciation and respect of authenticity.  Help connect a person to someone that may be able to help that person.  Be brave, be strong.  A TRUE friend is a treasure.  Relationships are very important, people are important, and the sooner we all realize that the better off the world will be.  Try a little kindness.  Be generous with your time, energy, wisdom, and resources.   Inconvenience yourself to help someone.   I am a brown eyed, brown haired woman.