Hi ElizabethMy name is
Sarah and I would also like to formally, Welcome you to Susan's Place!
I see that other members of Susan's have also welcomed you as well.
Thank you for sharing your story. There is nothing boring about someone telling their story. It adds to the collective knowledge about us, it helps others feel less alone, it helps you place your own steps on solid ground.
When I was very young, around four or five, I tried on some of my mother's clothes. Those first times always stays with you, especially when the clothes did not fit me.
I never participated in sports. I did not play soccer in primary school or any other football games, at least not that I can remember. I preferred to talk or play with the girls or sit with a book and read, although that never really eventuated the way I hoped, well reading books became my life long passion.
Late in high school I ended up in a boys boarding school because of circumstances. Oddly enough I thrived academically, although I could not be myself at the time.
Later in my mid twenties I was wearing female clothes at home. Each time I put something on I would say to myself, "this feels right." I dated, yet nothing lasting came out of it. I knew I was not gay. I liked women and I wanted to be like them.
It is never too late to change your life around. It is good to hear that Elizabeth has taken over in your day to day sense of self. For me Sarah never overtook me. She was always there and when the time came she changed her clothes and continued on living as herself.
There are times when I want to say more about my past. When I stop and think about it I return to the same thoughts. I do not want to be treated any differently than other female, I do not want to be discriminated against in any way and I live in a binary world. So I remain silent about revealing my past. After I changed my life around I never told anyone outside my family and a couple of doctors. That is how I like it. The short version is simple. You do not have to reveal yourself to anyone if you do not want to.
It is still good to tell your story in places where you feel safe. It helps to say things out loud in writing to people who understand where you are coming from. If you feel unsure about next steps you want to take. It can help to speak with a therapist who specialises in gender care and uses informed consent. That gives you a supportive setting to work through options at your own pace without pressure.
You are not boring. You are not alone. Your words matter, your privacy choices are yours, your timing is yours. Take the next small steps that makes you feel happy.
Once you feel comfortable here, it would be appreciated if you add a little bit more about yourself in the other forums and threads. I would appreciate it very much as, I'm always interested in learning something new about new members.
In addition members of Susan's will more than likely will discuss problems or issues that are similar to yours as most have experienced these issues as well.
Please keep in mind when posting that this is an
ALL AGES PUBLIC Forum and the internet never forgets. Do not post anything that you do not want to be made public.
Take care and all the best for the future.
Once again, Welcome to Susan's Place!Best Wishes AlwaysSarah BGlobal Moderator@Devlyn @Jessica_Rose @Mariah @Northern Star Girl @Lori Dee @Elizabeth_71
