I m very much confused as how to do things and keep going on with my life. For years, you all know the tale, i ve been deciding about my gender. I know perfectly what i am. But i ve been so much scared! And i ahte myself every day for not being strong enough! And time passes by and nothing changes. i know that for you, readers, this must be very difficult to understand quite clearly but surely you ll recognize the "symptoms". My story must have so many replicas. But every day i m getting older and i fear i ll die this way! For a live in Mexico, and i m from a caucasian background, to tall, to big and most of it, to hairy. And i ve started without medical counseling taking dosages of hormones. I start then i stop. I ve done for 4 times. It has been expensive and tedious and fearful. I ve seen changes appear and disappear. But the fact is that i dont have where to move as i have to take care of myself and the person i live with, economically and emotionally. To write this, kind of helps me. Txs for ahving this space! Manuel
