Hey everyone,
It's been almost a year since I posted here. Of course with the system changes--if that's the right word--my name disappeared from the rolls, but I do want to say how much Susan's and everyone who was here in '04-05 meant to me in a time of major life changes. I am basically a crossdresser, although I would say I have some gender issues in that I never felt comfortable in the stereotypical roles that boys or men are supposed to fill. I still find it difficult in Renaissance meetings when the small talk turns to sports or cars or home improvement. I mean, there we are, a bunch of guys in dresses, some of whom have gone to elaborate lengths to be convincing, but the talk could have come right out of the corner bar. "Not that there's anything wrong with that" (a la Seinfeld), but its just not me. I think what I really need is some good GG friends to spend a girls-day-out with.
Anyway, enough of that; this is supposed to be a re-introduction. Like many of us, I can remember having an interest in women's clothing from an early age. I can still remember my mother suggesting that I dress up as a girl for Halloween, saying what a pretty girl I'd make. Later, I surreptitously tried on her lingerie as a teenager. I've always had a special thing for stockings and tights--when a good looking woman walks by, it's usually her legs I notice first, both for old-fashioned sex appeal, but also to wonder whether her shoes come in my size! Over the years, I gradually added various items to my repetoire, but had always remained VERY closeted. But two summers ago, I was in the Washington area for several days on my own and made a major breakthrough when I discovered that I could wear a size 11W or 12 shoe--I'd previously thought women's shoes were two sizes different than men's and I couldn't find 13's. Now I could complete my look!
I found Susan's on the web and realized there are so many of us out there. I got in touch with a local Renaissance chapter and took advantage of a weekend when my family was away to go out on the town with some of the girls. It was a revelation! I had never felt so free! Unfortunately, it was also the beginning of the end of my marriage. My wife noticed that some new parts of my body were shaved. I confessed, and she freaked out. Now we are in the midst of property settlements and custody arrangements etc. So I don't know what exactly is in my future, but at the very least, it should be an adventure! I also have made at least one friend who is very accepting and is excited about taking me out shopping as soon as she and I can coordinate a weekend. So between some shopping and some clubs I've found, I'm getting out a little and making some new friends.
I'll stop there. I'm looking forward to reading what you sweet people have to say as I have a chance to check out some of the postings and getting to know old friends and new arrivals. Talk to you all again soon. Love Vicki.
