I lost me and i cant find her again.
she ran awayhid a long time ago
because they didnt want her didnt want her
so she left and i created him but he was
false a lie a fraud he wasnt me
and i threw him away killed him tore out his eyes his heart
and now icant find her again i left along time ago ill never comeback
ill never find her again.
and he laughsat meeverytime i look in the mirror and calls
me a fraud
Posted on: 09 March 2008, 12:45:36
I'm sorry I scared everybody last night. One of the perils of being internetted is that every breakdown deserves an audience, whether they like it or not. Instead of writing about it in a journal, like a normal person would, I get all worked up and let the whole world know. How silly.
I let emotion get the better of me all too easily. That's not a bad thing. It allows me to understand, to empathise, to see connections and consequences. The flipside however is that it also makes me overly sensitive to to the bad stuff in life. I let comments and events and opinions get to me so easily, where somebody stronger would just shrug it off knowing the other party is full of it.
I'm okay everybody. Really. I just need to find a better release than scaring everybody half to death every time I have a little episode.
Thanks for all the well-wishes and support. It means so much to me knowing you all care enough to take an interest.
I might be gone for a few days so don't worry about me. I just need to take some time to sort things out and get over myself. I was starting to find her again, I just allowed that to be interrupted by a bunch of silly things that shouldn't have gotten to me.
Simone
