I want to start off by saying that there have been becons to help me find peace with myself and to help me find my way; Renee Reyes, Transponder(Mila and Janena), ->-bleeped-<-talk, SRS, Gendertalk, and of course Susan's place. There are more sources than I can possibly write in such a post. But these are a few that have a special place in my heart. I have been transgendered since I was a child. I have searched for a long time I am 38 now and have finnally let years of repression and suppression fade int the dark. I have been a ghost behind the posts on this board for some time now. I was inspired through refernces like these to finnaly allow the wall to come down and to be real with my life insted of hiding it away from, even my grasp. I have made a big step in my transition and I have finnaly gotten into therapy. My consilor has advised me to become active "here" as she feels that support from my peers is in order, so here I am breaking free of my silence and taking my first step away from a reserved life. I have just come from the chat room and found it liberating to hear others like myself sharing ideas goals and dreams. I have seen from a distance that I am not alone. Now through interaction I "feel" that I am not alone. Thankyou for extending a hand to the quiet members of the community who hide behind their silence. I will accept the outstreched hand now as I am among my reflection in all of you, thanks for being there. "I Am Out" to a suport group that has been there for me for some time now and it feels good. Now, I too have a voice :)Ladies, Gentelmen it is good to be home.
