The big Bay window

[Barbara]

It was a hard winter, the snow was falling .It was 3 o'clock in the morning.I was high on a half of a joint and a twelve pack.I was sitting in front of the bay window..I was dressed in red heels,black skirt and a red blouse.I was asking myself questions,like why do i keep dressing like this?.Am i gay?.am i a transexual?.I kept watching the snow..I decided to take a walk in the snow.I walked around the block,i heard wheels spinning,it was a truck.it was a guy i knew from high school.I helped push him out,we talked he came back to my place with me..he held me in his arms and kissed me and told me i looked pretty.i felt so good.I felt liked I loved him.That night i knew exactly why i wanted to be a woman.I did not even think twice about it.years after i still went thought self doubts.But i remember how i felt that night and it was wonderfull ,it was everything i have always wanted.And i think it is a really special thing to be a girl.