Dislike the Universe

[Megan]

I come to a point where I have complete apathy for the universe, and I lost complete faith in God and good people. This realization occur to me when I had 1 major bad outcome for something which wasn't even bad. I am now treated like a criminal for not showing a license (which is what the ticket is), and I have probation and paid $400 today. And I have to do 50 hrs of community service, and classes, which is all costing money.

That was a month worth of work, and this ticket was given to me way back in December, a week after I turned 18. And it will not be over until next year's summer.

I do not drink, do drugs, or even did anything to deserve this and I know I do not deserve this. I come to conclusion it because of the way I look, which I am going to change. It was because of who I am, whatever that is. I am not going to be a transsexual, because this society hates transsexuals and why cause people to hate me even more? I will just become the most attractive heterosexual guy this world has seen, I do not know how to do that, but I will. I'll do that, and I'll do more.

I never felt this way before, but now I have a different purpose in life. I feel stronger, determined, but sick in the head all the same. I know exactly what to do with my future, and I will succeed.

I do not know why I am writing this, but I done here with Susans completely. I appreciate all you done to me though, since this community faces the hardest decisions of life. If the world was even like this community, then the world would be a weirder, gentler and loving world.

[lisagurl]

I come to a point where I have complete apathy for the universe, and I lost complete faith in God and good people

You have control of your life not God or other people. You know what it takes to reach your goals do not expect others want you to reach your goals have many backup planes because we do not know what the future brings but we can be prepared.

[Jamiee]

There is no God, no heaven, no hell. When we die that's it, we get peace and a release from the unending frustration and misery of our lives.

I lost my faith in God a long time ago. I don't believe in him/it although I do from time to time entertain the notion that something like that exists. But, if it does, it is not a kind God. It is not loving. It is a perverse, sadistic thing that gains pleasure in watching us struggle and work against the natural entropy of the world for everything we get and want to keep. I see absolutely no reason to praise and worship anything that would intentionally place me in a world like this.

We have control over our own choices, not in the rest of the world, which most often derails any amount of control we think we have.

Sorry, those are all my views on things.

[tekla]

1. The UNIVERSE does not give a sh** about you.  You could die tomorrow and the UNIVERSE will not miss a beat.

2.  Do not attempt to show the universe you exist.  It does not care.  Your time is short, the universe is as close to infinite as we can understand.

3.  If you don't care, why should anyone else?

4.  Of course the game is rigged, but you can't win if you don't play.

Edited for language

[insideontheoutside]

Right now in the universe there's stars going super nova. You can take that to mean that your infinitesimal, microscopic life means nothing to the universe, but you can also take it several other ways. When I was at a very low point in my life, someone told me that same line. I was in the middle of a panic attack about how I couldn't go to the grocery store and buy food without freaking out. With that one line, delivered to me at the exact right moment in time, I thought to myself, what in the f--- am I doing with my life?? There were things infinitely larger than my panic attack in the universe. And even though that was so, it didn't invalidate my life. My "world" did not include super novas but it included a lot of other things and I was shutting myself off from even living until I realized the actual importance of living. I know this is a bit esoteric but it helped me out of a really dark place to just be able to understand that my life was important because I was living it, and some day, just like the stars that are exploding, I too would cease to be. How brightly I had shown before that happened was all up to me though.

[Pica Pica]

Speak for yourselves, I am the reason for the universe. The whole thing culminates here, with me laying in bed listening to the birds.

[aisha]

om mani padme hum

[VeryGnawty]

I come to a point where I have complete apathy for the universe

The feeling is mutual, since the universe most certainly has apathy for you.  Or even more likely, the universe doesn't even care enough to have apathy at all.  Rather, it has a complete lack of apathy for you.

Welcome to the dark side.  Your pain makes you strong.  When you are sick and tired of being sick and tired, you will rise up to the challenge and do something remarkable with your life, no matter how badly the odds are stacked against you.  Get to it.  If you can admit your negativity, then you can wield it to make something usefull.

[Jam]

Im not really understanding the whole Universe thing, if we are on about the actual Universe as i see it then why or more to the point how could it care about me? Its Planets and Asteroids, it has nothing against or for us because it does not feel, so how could we expect it too?? maybe i have missed something or not heard of a new religion.....maybe.

I do not believe in God, i am fully convinced by Evolution and i am fine not having something to pray too. In my darkest moments i have family, friends and failing that i have myself. At the end of the day the only one who will make me feel better is myself after all. I am the one who decides that i am sad or happy. I lost faith in human kindness a long time ago, most people are only nice if you fit there own little checklist and they are not too up there own a**e to give a s**t about anyone else.

There are a few who are the exception but in general i believe the biggest plague on the World is unfortunatly us. The brain power we have we could have done a lot better but we are selfish, its always about us and it always will be.

Make your decisions for yourself, i do now and i am a lot happier for it. You'll find the more you do for others the more they just expect it of you. I'm not living for anyone else anymore and i wont do what they expect just to fit into there box. This is my life, i have one shot im not going to waste it, i will help others as much as i can dont get me wrong, but that wont be the focus of my life anymore.

I dont no if that made sense but seen as people are putting there thoughts out there.