Hi about me

[Kinkly]

Hi 
I'm a 30 yo biological male who feels mostly female I'm rather confused as to where i fit seeing as i've never felt like i fit in while i see myself as a lesbian traped in a mans body,  I also want nothing more than to be a dad (mums worry too much)
My biggest concern (that i can verbalize) is that if I'm Loving a girl that i'm spending time with will she feel my love or get mixed messages because my love is Lesbian in its nature (I think it must be because i feel totally different about girls to the way any other guys do).  Would i feel Loved if a girl Loved me as a guy.  The reason for these two questions - the only girl who I've ever felt Loved by didn't want to be anymore that friends because she was attracted to girls. 

when i was 15 i was diagnosed with a brain tumor and after some treatment was given 3 years to live Max (almost 15 years ago .  So my teen years were stolen now that i'm healthy i'm trying to find me in my mess of confusion, 
back to gender issues the only time I feel comfortable in my own skin is when in female clothes and can't stand to see my own reflection my face is hidden behind a beard so i can cope with brushing teeth ect. but feel disgust at my male body if seen by me topless or less(don't care what others think or see).
   I'm wondering if other people with gender issues have any of these concerns
and if relationships are a major hurdle.    Or am i just totally weird

Huggs Kinkly

[RebeccaFog]

Hi Kinkly,


       Welcome to the site!

       There are many variations of transgender.  Only you can know for yourself which one is you.   Some people know right off and others take a while and experiment with different concepts such as dressing and such.

      We tend to recommend to people that they see a gender therapist.  The therapist can help with working through the issues that are true for you.

      Hang around and read some of the other posts and threads on the site.  You're sure to find other people who relate to where you're at right now.



Rebis

[Myanne]

Hello Kinkly!

You are in the right place to read about personal experiences. I like to read about other people's life.
Welcome here!

Hugs

[tinkerbell]

Hello Kinkly and welcome to Susan's!

Thank you so much for your introduction.  Please take a few moments to get familiar with all the boards of the site, review the site rules before posting, and take advantage of our many resources such as the wiki, chat, and the links listed at the main page.  We look forward to your future posts and participation.  Enjoy your stay

tink

[Pica Pica]

You sound weird.
But pleasingly weird so welcome and enjoy - no fish is to weird for her aquarium as the saying goes.

[Kinkly]

You sound weird.
But pleasingly weird so welcome and enjoy - no fish is to weird for her aquarium as the saying goes.

Thaks Pica

Weird is a label I feel comfortable with and suits me well 

thanks for all the welcomes everyone it means a lot
kinkly

[gennee]

Hi Kinkly and welcome. There are many experiences here as there are many expressions of transgender. I'm sure that you will find where you fit.

Gennee

[Sheena]

Hi kinkly,
I'm new here myself, welcome.
I use to think of myself as weird but then after many years I searched out why I was the way I am. To my surprise I found that I wasn't the only one on the planet like this. Now I like myself and I see that being transgendered is something unique, we are a wonder of nature.
I'm lesbian as well. I can not remember the last time I thought of myself as a man when making love, in my mind its always two women.
Hugs,
Sheena

[Kinkly]

I know I'm weird and i would be without gender issues pls don't call me unique, special or other politically correct versions of weird  I've had enough of that from doctors if i didn't have a weird sense or humor i would not have survived my medical issues or be able to cope with strange comments about my gender in a light hearted way  (would you like example) and I'm willing to do almost anything as a joke if it will not hurt any one

[Sheena]

Sorry Kinkly, I wasn't trying to offend you.
Sheena

[Kinkly]

thats ok

[Pica Pica]

i think you might find a lot of us inbetweeny, androgyne types have a very similarly pervasive humour. We tend to be less sensitive it seems.

[Kinkly]

I've just been told change name or get kicked out operantly kinkly is too sexual so i've submited kikly i don't really like it.  not as much as kinkly but it will do 

hugs kikly
(kinkly)

[Janet_Girl]

Welcome Kinkly to Susan's.

If you're weird then so are the rest of us, but then again what is weird?  And who really cares.   You're alright, just be yourself.

There is nothing worng with weird. As we say in my neck of the woods, " Keep Portland Weird ".
Again welcome and check out the chat.

Love Janet

[Kinkly]

i think you might find a lot of us inbetweeny, androgyne types have a very similarly pervasive humour. We tend to be less sensitive it seems.

not me I'm very sensitive i just hide behind my humour

Laugh or cry i choose laugh

[RebeccaFog]

I've just been told change name or get kicked out operantly kinkly is too sexual so i've submited kikly i don't really like it.  not as much as kinkly but it will do 

hugs kikly
(kinkly)

I wonder if it's okay for us to refer to you as "Kink"?

[Kinkly]

I've just been told change name or get kicked out operantly kinkly is too sexual so i've submited kikly i don't really like it.  not as much as kinkly but it will do 

hugs kikly
(kinkly)

I wonder if it's okay for us to refer to you as "Kink"?

Probably not apperantly kinkly mees a little kink

Posted on: April 11, 2008, 10:24:49 AMmeens - sorry my keyboard has a dodgy 'N' key