Megan asked for HRT

[Megan123]

Deep Breath..
My therapist has really been good for me these past several years and in the morning I let her know I want a referral for HRT. She will probably have me see my Psych which is OK too. Did my homework and found an Endo who will prescribe and accept my insurance once she receives the referral.
Double checked to make sure my insurance covers the visits and meds. If all goes well I will be taking Estrogen soon. Another deep breath.
I know my body is low in Testosterone because I have been seeing a local Endo for Hot Flashes etc. The local Endo wants me on Testosterone. I did one pump of T and after 2 months my breasts are sensitive and growing. That means the T I take is being turned into Estrogen by my body. This Endo Doc wants me to pile on the T I told her no thanks. I like my boobs and want to keep them. She wont HRT me for Estrogen, she does not do M to F for anyone.
So I found an Endo out of town who will prescribe when my therapist provides a referral.
My therapist and I have touched on this before but now we are going to discuss it. Hope it goes well. It is time.

Megan

[JLT1]

Good luck!  You've done your homework and it sounds like it is time.

Hugs


Jen

[Megan123]

So Far So Good.
The name of my Therapist is Amy and she is wonderfully supportive. We talked and she understands and Amy agreed to continue as my therapist. She will need a few days to digest the needs of the HRT referral for me and make sure it is done correctly.
We talked about so much stuff and I think she wanted to make certain of my confidence in my decision.
I have a Psych Doctor who we co-op with so Amy asked me to make sure I visit my Psych as a courtesy to let my Psych know face to face also. I see my Psych on Monday after I take my blood tests for Endo to show where my blood and hormone levels are now.
JOY!!
After my therapy session I got my ears pierced at Claire's in the Mall. The lady at Claire's was so very nice and I got a 50% off coupon for stuff there. I chose gold post with single pearl for my earrings. Gotta keep them in for 2 months for the piercing to take right.
What a great day this has been.
Think I will continue to update here in this thread how the HRT request process goes all the way up to my getting my estrogen.
Follow the Yellow brick road...

Hugs to all, -Megan

[Megan123]

Hi Jen and Thanks for the support.
Wanted all my duckies in a row for the therapist and of course for me.
We talked about future plan and I explained after a couple years of HRT I want my testes removed because it will lessen my hormone needs and testes removal is affordable while very effective at reducing Testosterone.
Amy knows about my hypogonadism. My T is low already. The male thing has shrunk, hides inside mostly. No erection in at least a year. I dont want to feel an erection again anyway. eewwh yuck 
Meantime I save up for SRS.

-Megan

[PrincessDayna]

Do they know the cause of that hypogonadism? Im surprised your endo hasnt done further testing to see if you are intersexed, cuz thats what led into my testing and such. And congrats on getting ur ears pierced, i got mine done at claires too! Be sure to use that cleaning product as often as u need, or feel the need, it lasts. Secondly, turn those posts of yours daily, it helps heal correctly

[Megan123]

Hi PrincessDayna
My local endo did do some testing over about 8 month time frame. Checked my thyroid, pituitary and T. She says I have a thyroid problem and also a pituitary signal thing. I dont understand all of it. A long list of chemical and hormone and enzyme codes are on the lab reports. My endo gave me a written report diagnosis of hypogonadism. My local endo wants me to power up on Testosterone.

Just more confirmation for me I am wired female because taking that T made me raging sick. Even my daughter says T is not good for me. Thank goodness.

Stopping the T keeps me calmer and I have stopped taking it. It is awful how it makes me feel. Well, I have breasts and the penis thing shrinks into my body. My breasts are a B cup. Wearing Bra full time now. I like my breasts and love how my nipples tingle. My Therapist and Psych doc both agree I dont need to be on T hormone because it makes me sick (anxiety, sweats, and confusion)

Just more verification I am a female. I think my local Endo has issues about HRT for M to F; for certain the local Endo office manager says NO they dont do HRT for girls like me. All I can get from my local endo is she wants me to take T. I have more blood tests on Monday which are local endo follow-up anyway. After the tests I am going to see my Psych Doc and talk about my wanting HRT.

I am wired female. My body has gone hypogonad. I have breast growth, the penis thing hides and testes stay tucked when i tuck them.

I have found another Endo (not local) who will prescribe me estrogen once she gets a referral. I will do a release so the second endo can get my lab reports from the local endo since the local endo is reluctant to treat M to F HRT.

Thank fate my body converted excess T to estrogen and I grew boobies. I luv them.
Really looking forward to getting on estrogen treatment so I may complete transition.

I am female, lets do this thing.

Hugs,

-Megan   

[Jerri]

congrats Megan,
I truly hope that you have speedy and positive help,
Jerri

[PrincessDayna]

Meg, you understand im not contesting you are female right? was just wondering then if the local endo is overlooking something for biased purposes and not pointing it out. Get a second opinion from your next endo doll i havehypogonadism, micro penis and am confirmed 47xxy, andreactedthe same way in my youthto T, to the "t" you describe, as well as other issues. Anyhow, i am glad you are solidly ready, estrogen is an amazing thing once it floods the body with all its wonderfull delight. I really hope you get HRT doll., and enjoy the ride! Its an amazing journey!

[Rachel]

Congratulations!

[Megan123]

Meg, you understand im not contesting you are female right? was just wondering then if the local endo is overlooking something for biased purposes and not pointing it out. Get a second opinion from your next endo doll i havehypogonadism, micro penis and am confirmed 47xxy, andreactedthe same way in my youthto T, to the "t" you describe, as well as other issues. Anyhow, i am glad you are solidly ready, estrogen is an amazing thing once it floods the body with all its wonderfull delight. I really hope you get HRT doll., and enjoy the ride! Its an amazing journey!

Morning Princess,
I think you and I agree my local endo is overlooking something and not completely sharing with me. I get this impression from how she read the lab results earlier and kind of stumbled about talking about my pituitary. She took longer to read the lab report in the room while I was sitting there; then she did talking with me. She remarked to me my T is still low, I tried to tell her what the Androgel did and I stopped using it. "You need more Testosterone" she say's just like that with little explanation other than I am hypogonad.

She then writes in her laptop telling me to come back in 3 months for more blood tests. She changed the gel to Fortesta I leave get the T gel and after a few weeks I go crazy again. No way I am taking that T anymore.... Well this is the second time this has happened because the previous visit with endo 6 months ago is when she first tried me on T. That very first use was Androgel and it made me crazy too and I stopped.

I already see a Psych and therapist and have been for years. Like a good girl I kept my therapist informed about all this; endo visits and the Testosterone making me crazy. My Therapist has seen me on T and agrees it is bad for me; makes me sick. My Mental Health team works with me to help keep me from recurring major depression. Amy my therapist is so good with me.

So next I go through all this anxiety for days like in a fog and I decide I have to have HRT. The more I researched the better I feel. I called my local endo office to see what they need to start HRT, the lady I spoke with was real nice but she put me on hold to speak with the office manager. lady got back on the phone, apologized and said their policy is they dont do HRT. The lady was real nice apoligized at least 3 times and let me know she felt bad about having to tell me NO.

So... I do think my local endo knows something but is biased against transgender and may be hiding info from me. I live in South Georgia USA, the bible belt. I have just got to sell my house and move away from here. Go up North somewhere.

My therapist Amy was so understanding and supportive when I talked with her about HRT. My therapist has been following me through this every week.

What is 47XXY? Is that a DNA marker?

Anyway........ for certain when I see my new endo and sign a release so she can get labs from my local endo, maybe we will find out more. No doubt the new endo will want the lab results just to do her job before prescribing me estrogen.

My daughter say's I have been much more relaxed and at peace the last week since stopping the T and talking with my Therapist. My daughter likes the female me.

I wear a bra everyday because I support my breasts and it helps me feel good. Got my ears pierced with cute little pearl studs. Opened an account at Woman Within (Layne Bryant). A wonderful side effect of taking the T was my body turned the excess T into estrogen and I have breasts with tender nipples. I love the feeling in my boobs. There is this winky dink penis thing but it is only for peeeing. LOL..

I agree, my body is naturally releasing female. I love it and have always felt it. I think my local endo wants to keep me in the box. I am climbing out of the box.

My mental health team and my daughter supports me. Sigh of joy....

I need to start looking for a community up North that is gender friendly. Any ideas?

Thank you Princess for the right questions to help me discover. I read about your trip to the hospital with bleeding. The thing is I have had that too. Only nothing was found, I even had colonoscopy. 

I need to start looking for a community up North that is gender friendly. Any ideas?

Hugs,
-Megan

[Gina_Z]

If I were you, I would find an endocrinologist who is transgender friendly. A girl's got to do, what a girl's got to do.

[Megan123]

Gina_Z, You are so right and this girl is going to a different endo. Have found a different endo about 1.5 hour drive from here but well worth it.

Girls gonna do what a girls gotta do.

Princess Dayna has been a wealth of info for me. I did some research and found out about Klinefelter syndrome or 47XXY as it is called. I have all the signs with my hypogonadism and that is what Princess was trying to tell me. Even my slow cognitive is a Klinefelter syndrome issue.

I bet this is what the endo I have now found so interesting and is why she is trying to load me up on T. My goodness this explains so much about my whole life. I am a girl trapped in this male body. It is not just an emotional or mental thing, this is chromosomes too and my physical condition proves it.

Damn their hides. Keeping info from me. Wow..
I got bonafides. I am intersexed from birth. I want my Estrogen.

[JLT1]

Hey,

PrincessDayna is correct, you two sound like peas in a pod.  It is reasonable to wonder if you could indeed have Klinefelter's and when someone brings up that you have a daughter and the people with XXY cannot have children, please inform them that 85% of individuals with XXY can father children.  The only way to know is to get tested.  It's a simple and inexpensive blood test.  They need to do about 30 cells rather than 3 but the test could be warranted to exclude other conditions.  (Coming from someone who you heard from on-line and is not a doctor – always be cautious.)  This test is a great place to start if you feel you need to understand more than you already understand.

Being intersexed, for me, made the reason for my change both a little easier and a little harder to understand but that was about it.  I still have all the same problems every other MTF has; a woman inside of a mostly male body. When I was having trouble, I got most of the same recommendations: try testosterone.  For me, testosterone makes my prostate hurt and swollen in addition to some distress.  E is wonderful.

Hugs, Jen     

[PrincessDayna]

Ask your new endo to do genetic marker testing for xxy. If needs be there are geneticists as well, but that can get pricey. Be aware not all insurance companies cover that genetic testing either but a good endo or geneticist knows what to say for billing purposes. I was never asked to pay more then my standard consultation fee from my usual visit. Being a parent genetically with it can be pretty common, that usually ties in as mosiac 47xxy, where as it is 46xy 47xxy. some of us are sterile or infertile, and in some rare cases have pretty rare physical abnormalities. I have a non functioning uterus, and non functioning male appearance gonads that are pretty small to match their hated buddy. Never did tesing on the gonads as they are as my endo said: "dead if i do, dead if i don't". So feel blessed for having kids! Im not sure i could as how i live female but in a male way i can safely say nope. All spiro did was make clear discharge into zero discharge during climax lol. And we didnt even know i had a uterus untill a few monthes back ended up at hospital over shedding uteral lining and yeah. Thats estrogen, my endo says, n ya it is indeed. Month one returned cramps from age 11-and lemme fully agree that you needs a trans friendly endo, any of those are also intersex friendly. I cant gelieve what your endo is doing, you should sue hard if u find out she hid you were IS from you!