Just venting here, folks. I am a brand new nurse, as some of you know. I had 2 job offers out of 3 applications, and an interview offered with another after I had accepted a job.
To make a long story short, my orientation was only 2 nights, then I was thrown to the wolves. I am so scared of making a med error and killing one of these very brittle old people. (I work in a nursing home). I started the job with little or no preparation, it's a night shift, and I haven't learned to sleep in the daytime. I have issues with my feet, kind of like a diabetic does. They hurt a lot, and I need very good shoes really bad. I have tried on literally dozens of pairs to find one good pair. I am fat from the hormones and lack of exercise (I am at work the hours I used to walk in the park alone) and very depressed from working with nurses with real negative attitudes. I had to call in sick today, just to get some rest. I have pretty much bitched my head off to all of my best friends, and now consider that I have chosen the wrong job, maybe even the wrong career. I am in demand now, but I can't handle it (yet).
Anyhow, thanks for reading and letting me vent with you. If you pray, please pray for me. My house is a shambles, and I don't even care right now. (I am a neat freak, to boot). I am too tired to have any fun, and I am used to having lots of fun, not working like a mule. I love all of you, take care!
