I'm a genetic Male.... Sadly. Since I was about... 13 or 14, I've always longed to be female.. Well, to have been born female, anyway... Which is problematic...
I've crossdressed (though not really in public except for late night ganders and wearing feminine under-articles nearly all the time....) but yet... It doesn't satisfy me enough.
Every day I basically wish I was borne with the same mentality as I have now, only in a female body... I love the clothing, the styles, the colours... Attitude, behaviour, activities... All that. I want the mentality to stay the same because, hey... you want what you don't have, and I'm sure the default female outlook would be "meh, I'm just a girl, what's so special..."
Most days I love to look at girls.. as most guys do, I guess.. But I look in a different way. I see them as pretty much just beauty... It depresses me that I can't/haven't/probably won't ever be a part of one of the most beautiful things in mine eyes..
I dunno.. I'm just kind of rambling on, but that's a basic overview of 'me'. I've been trying to get a clutch on my depression (caused by some rather traumatic events recently occurring) and this gender..... whatever you want/need to call it is just kinda bringing me lower..
So, here I am!
