Emotional 'power surges'?

[Hazumu]

As I progress in my HRT-fueled transition, I notice that, from time to time, something -- a thought, a picture, someone's comment -- will trigger a surge of emotion.  It feels like a mix of both joy and sadness undifferentiated, as if I could at that moment laugh and cry simultaneously.

These moments are quite a rush, and I'm getting to like them -- perhaps becoming addicted to the experience.

Alas, they eventually fade, and I'm back to drably experiencing the world (or at least, now in comparison it seems drab...)

I hope that these moments will only become stronger.  But I also hope that I learn how to control and direct them -- I'd hate for them to lead to inappropriate behavior I'll later regret.

So my question to the other girls here -- have you experienced anything similar?  Could you describe in your own words what it feels like for you?

And from the guys -- what analogous experiences have you had since starting your HRT?

Thanks, and I'm looking forward to reading your stories;

Karen

[TheBattler]

LOL- I do not need HRT to get those emotional power surges.  With my split personality I do not know if I am Alan or Alice. I may write something in the PMS zone so I do not take up your thread.

Al

[tinkerbell]

Hi Karen:
I experienced something similar when I started HRT.  At that time, it felt like a mixture of euphoria and desperation combined.  Now I still feel the same way very often but the experience is less intense, probably because I'm already used to the feeling.
tinkerbell

[Melissa]

Yeah, I go between emotional and normal.  The emotional is almost always caused by some sort of trigger.  Usually it happens at the most inconvenient times though, like when I'm in front of people I'm not out to yet.

Melissa

[umop ap!sdn]

I had an emotional surge yesterday. Somebody had said something at me which I thought was inappropriate, and a little later they said something else that just did it for me. I went off by myself and cussed a little and slammed a few doors.

*sigh*

But in the middle of it all, I stopped and I thought - to me it is worth it. I would rather this than go back to the effects of testosterone.

[stephanie_craxford]

Hello Karen.

I think that it is safe to say that many who have started HRT have experienced these emotional surges.  Whether the HRT causes a more emotional response than you would normally have to a situation.  I know for myself that I openly cry where as before that emotion was carefully locked away.

Steph

[Kimberly]

The oddest one, for me, is occasionally I will find something... funny. Debilitatingly funny. ^*chortle* It is amusing In appropriate and in the way, but amusing!

[Melissa]

The oddest one, for me, is occasionally I will find something... funny. Debilitatingly funny. ^*chortle* It is amusing In appropriate and in the way, but amusing!

I hadn't thought too much about that being an effect of HRT, but I have that too.  Sometimes I will just write something funny, and then I have this uncontrollable need to laugh a whole bunch.  Usually I'll go in private so that people won't think I'm insane or something.

Melissa

[umop ap!sdn]

I've always had the tendency to go overboard with fits of laughter.

[Nero]

The oddest one, for me, is occasionally I will find something... funny. Debilitatingly funny. ^*chortle* It is amusing In appropriate and in the way, but amusing!

I do this too. Usually when I've seen a beloved movie or read a favorite book for the millionth time, I cease to find the "funny" parts funny and start finding the "serious, heart-wrenching, tragic parts" utterly hilarious. Then I come off as a heartless ogre to everyone in the room.

Thanks ladies, for pointing out that this too is a femme thing. I'm feeling really macho now.

Nero