hello

[shazz]

Since this is my first message to this site, I should say hello and tell you a bit about myself, tell you my story, etc. but I cant because I'm not sure if this is the right place for me.

I know this is a site for tg,tv,cd,ts, etc. but i'm referring to me. I'm not sure what I am.

What I do know is that I'm a bloke, it says so on my birth certificate (but I'm not to sure of that some days), I know I tend to feel more comfortable wearing women's clothes then men's and there are days when I wish I was a woman, usually in the summer then I can wear a light cotton skirt etc to keep cool of course come winter, I'm wishing I was woman then I could wear a pair of tights under my trousers to keep my legs warm.

I know I have some "strange thoughts" running through my head some times, But I don't know if there "normal" for a bloke (if there is such a thing as "normal" in this world), a desire to be a woman (either as cross-dresser or to have surgery), or a sign that I'm going mad (which wouldn't surprise me in the least). For example, my ex-girlfriend (and before anyone thinks it that's not why we split up) she wears some very nice clothes, very attractive, shows of her figure and so on, If she was standing in front on me wearing her Bajorian jumpsuit, A "normal" bloke would probably think she's attractive, start mentally undressing her, then wonder what's she like in bed. I don't, sure I find her attractive that's one of the thing I like about her (that and her personality, her charm, her smile, her intelligence, you get the idea), I look at her and think to myself "why can't of I been a girl?, it looks so great on her". The same thing happens if I see her in a swimsuit, a skirt, T-shirt & leggings, come to think of it I don't think I've seen her in anything which didn't make me wish I was a girl. Its not just a my ex that courses this response, most women course it.

That sort of thing can't be "normal", which makes me think this isn't the right site.

if you want I could post my story, I wrote it about 5-10 years ago, I'll get around to up-dating it one of these days

[tinkerbell]

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[buttercup]

Hi and welcome Shazz, 

This is a great site to explore and maybe over time you will come to realise what you should or want to do with your life.  Just ask any questions and I'm sure someone will be able to relate or answer it. 

Cheers

Buttercup 

[gennee]

Hi Shazz and welcome to Susan's. I am a transgender mtf crossdresser. I have had similar feelings. It's normal that you are having all these thoughts. It can get to be confusing but in time you'll sort it out. If you need to see a therapist, do so. There are so many wonderful folks here that can answer many of your questions.

Gennee

[shazz]

Thanks, its nice to know is not just me.

As I may of said in some other post, I look at an attractive woman and think "god if only I was a woman". Which can't be "normal", there again what's "normal?".

"Normal" is a straight-jacket invented by and imposed by society to restrain the individualism and creativity of its members. "Normal" is an enforced reality, something I not ready to have thrust upon me.

These thoughts their either telling me that I should be a woman, cd/tv/ts/tg, etc or telling me I'm going mad. I've been going mad for years, so nothing new there, as for the former, just as long as I know.

The next question is the "ah-ah" moment, as in "ah-ah that's why I feel this way"

But one thing at a time


Shazz