Has anyone ever get this feeling? (like a panic attack?)

[lostandconfused]

Sometimes if my mind isn't busy doing something else (trying to sleep) or if it's triggered, by say looking in the mirror, I get this image of any part of my body (usually my face though) and it starts morphing into something more masculine and the next thing I know I'm hyperventilating and I feel a sense of panic. It occurs at a night a lot and I end up wake awake sometimes from it. No I am not transitioning, and I don't think I will anytime soon - my parents seem to have decided to "straighten" me out. Has anyone ever experienced these episodes?

[Drik]

I used to have similar stuff when I was still in my denial phase
(im not saying you're in one). Dont know what it is or what to do about it tho (mine stopped when I started living as male)

[Ali Noir]

I get those every now and then (mainly when I look in the mirror), but, I've learned it's something I have to come to terms with for the time being, until I can do something more about it. Basically, I just let is slide, and it helps before I get worse. Music is a big outlet that I use
xoxo
Ali

[Lachlann]

I have an anxiety disorder where I get frequent panic attacks. So I know how you're feeling.

The main trigger of my panic attacks are from something other than gender issues, but sometimes they can be from that. When it comes down to panic attacks, people can have really different triggers and sometimes you don't even know what exactly tipped it off.

They aren't very fun at all. I hope it gets better for you soon.

[amie]

I get those every now and then (mainly when I look in the mirror), but, I've learned it's something I have to come to terms with for the time being, until I can do something more about it. Basically, I just let is slide, and it helps before I get worse. Music is a big outlet that I use
xoxo
Ali

I thought I'd touch a bit on yours cause you made "The Mirror" reference. After all these years I'm still baffled as to how I can look in the mirror and not even recognize the Whatever in it. Though I know why of course in terms of feeling misplaced or better described, "damned", I don't understand how 30+ years could pass and my quandary remain. Someone?

[suregirl]

I used to smoke weed and drink alcohol(mainly to get away from how I felt about myself) and used to suffer from these anxiety attacks...when I stopped taking chemicals the attacks stopped and have not re-occured since(3yrs now) x

[Ender]

Yup.  I definitely have gotten the I-can't-breath hyperventilating panic attacks.  It's triggered mainly by full-body mirrors (like at the gym that I frequent) and showers.  I've gotten better at stopping them before they go full-blown (and are therefore publicly noticeable), mostly by taking deep rhythmic breaths and pushing whatever the hell it was that was bothering me out of my mind--which is hard to do.  If I can't push it out of my mind, repeating in my head 'I can't change it right now, so stop it' can help.  It's sort of like building up a mental callous...

I'm not bothered by panic attacks when I'm in bed or sleeping, but what I does happen sometimes is that I'll get in that really relaxed just-before-you-fall-asleep state, and then start twitching/convulsing.  Usually only a couple times, but a few nights ago it lasted for 15-20 minutes and I couldn't stop it; kind of frightening, actually.  I really should've just gone out for a run to get rid of the excess energy.  I think this is brought on by stress from the day (in retrospect the day when that happened was particularly stressful). I'm sure pushing down whatever bugs me during the day doesn't help either; I'm usually a pretty chill person, but lately I've been noticing that I've been unreasonably stressed out.  It's just that I don't realize it until I try to relax... I'm so outta touch with emotions sometimes it's ridiculous >.<

[Domestic Insanity]

I have nightmares that people find out I'm genetically female, and molest and humiliate me...
And that makes me wake up shaking and scared.