Started on Injections and Spiro--YES!!

[Tanya1]

Hey,

I self-med but I'm not asking for help on how to do it, since it isn't allowed.

But today, I got my blood results from my Endo (has no trans experience). The results were 353 ng/dl which is on the low end but still VERY high for a transsexaul and my estro was 24 which is typical for post-menopausal female. I think these results are inaccurate because my mom found my HRT and made me stop prior to the blood work. I also believe my test shooted up a bit because I was using Androcur and the manufacturer says to not stop cold turkey or your T levels may jump up. Plus on Androcur I didn't masturbate or get erections at all.(Maybe here and there but they were freaking painful and very hard to ejauculate).

Anyways I started back on HRT just recently without a doc supervision. (not asking for dosages or advice). I got on Spiro and seem to tolerate it well. I already drink enough water, watch my salt and potissuim. After the blood results I was pissed so I decided to do my Estrogen Injection today!!!

I read some medical literature in IM injections, info and even watched a few videos. To be frank I wasn't nervous at all. Bodybuilders who think they are so tough, say they literally were procrasinating for like 5 hours because they were so nervous. Me, I'm just a tiny girl (not tiny but you know what I mean) and I did in like 1 minute. I felt NO pain at all, I felt like NOTHING, it was like I didn't even stick anything in my body.


Anyways, I did estrofem and androcur before and they results were VERY dissapointing. I heard injections may give faster results, sometimes better results, sometimes the same results. My goal is to get a Large B-cup  . Well my journey continues on HRT and transition...I'll diet, excersice and pray to god.

I talked to my physcologist who is worried about me since I'm a loner and have no friends. He wants me to have a support group b/c he said it would be VERY hard by myself to transition. I think I'll tell him my HRT regimen...


Anybody have any comments?

[Mari]

I also believe my test shooted up a bit because I was using Androcur and the manufacturer says to not stop cold turkey or your T levels may jump up. Plus on Androcur I didn't masturbate or get erections at all.

Can someone expalin what this means? English is not my first language so I didn't get it
(though i have some assumptions but don't want to emberis myself)

[louise000]

You sound very young and you are not going to like me for talking down to you but......honey you really need to be doing this under medical supervision, you are too young to possibly mess yourself up by self medicating.  Please get your mom to help you get professional advice, it's not a crime to be trans and much easier to talk to others about it than it was when I was your age.
OK so you hate me now!
Louise

[RyanWasHere]

At first, I was going to defend you from the "No self medication! You could possibly drop dead!" wagon. I was going to bring up that some of us have bush cardboard cut out worshiping families, who would kick us to the curb at the first mention if we were lucky, and kill us if we were unlucky. I was going to bring up that some people live in cities that have one or two experienced therapists that are not hidden somewhere in the woodwork, and both of them have all the medical patients they are allowed.

Then I read that you have a therapist, and haven't told them you were going through with it behind their back, and that you also have an Endo. (How ever lacking in experience that they may be.)

Why WOULDN'T you tell them? Your mom obviously knows you are on it, and didn't kick you to homeless land, your therapist knows you have issues with it, etc. It's madness, there is like, no reason for you to not tell them. No excuse at all.

I guess the idea behind this post is that you should probably tell your therapist/endo what you are up to.

[Tanya1]

Louise, my mom doesnt want me on HRT. She wants a son. She even tries to make me interested in girls. (not attracted to them) She says I will be a husband etc etc.

The endo I went to is honestly not too knowledgable about this. I told her I will go on spiro and asked why?
She said my liver and kidneys are fine and everything is in check.

TBH, I hate the idea of self medicating b/c it takes some tweaking to get an effective regimen.

But HRT is very important to me and I haven't fully masculinzed. I don't want my bone structure to develop any more masculine.

Posted on: May 09, 2008, 03:10:01 PM

At first, I was going to defend you from the "No self medication! You could possibly drop dead!" wagon. I was going to bring up that some of us have bush cardboard cut out worshiping families, who would kick us to the curb at the first mention if we were lucky, and kill us if we were unlucky. I was going to bring up that some people live in cities that have one or two experienced therapists that are not hidden somewhere in the woodwork, and both of them have all the medical patients they are allowed.

Then I read that you have a therapist, and haven't told them you were going through with it behind their back, and that you also have an Endo. (How ever lacking in experience that they may be.)

Why WOULDN'T you tell them? Your mom obviously knows you are on it, and didn't kick you to homeless land, your therapist knows you have issues with it, etc. It's madness, there is like, no reason for you to not Tell them. No excuse at all.

I guess the idea behind this post is that you should probably tell your therapist/endo what you are up to.

LOL... My endo does know and asked me if I will continue this and said yes. She said someone should monitor this. She didn't mention she would though... My therapist knows about my gender issues. He said that he's trying to evualate me and see what he can do for me. I will tell him I am on HRT though...

basically I don't have financial backing to get a proper therapist, and to get a endo- that's why I'm DIY HRT.

My sister knows too and they think its fake. I told my therapist that they are completely against it. I discussed this in another topic. I'm keeping things on the down low and my therapist also said that IRS smart I'm keeping a low profile b/c he said that to don't want your family kicking you out.


I'm 18 by the way..


Anyway I want ask if my mom will notice changes?

Will people notice too?

[louise000]

Louise, my mom doesnt want me on HRT. She wants a son. She even tries to make me interested in girls. (not attracted to them) She says I will be a husband etc etc.

The endo I went to is honestly not too knowledgable about this. I told her I will go on spiro and asked why?
She said my liver and kidneys are fine and everything is in check.

TBH, I hate the idea of self medicating b/c it takes some tweaking to get an effective regimen.

But HRT is very important to me and I haven't fully masculinzed. I don't want my bone structure to develop any more masculine.

Posted on: May 09, 2008, 03:10:01 PM

I understand Tanya. Perhaps I was jumping to conclusions and I didn't realise you were 18. My intentions were good, I just don't want others to go down the same road as I did. Sorry.
Louise

[Tanya1]

 would you mind sharing what "road you went down in"?

I did do research on these meds though but you need blood work to draw up conclusions!

[Just Mandy]

Tanya, we all do this that we feel we are forced to do, so don't for a minute feel bad
or like you can't share things here. And not just regarding DIY HRT. Make smart
decisions and do your research and things will work out. Everyone here
knows dealing with GID is not easy whether your 18, 40 or 60 or more and
people here are just interested in your welfare and safety.

I talked to my physcologist who is worried about me since I'm a loner and have no friends. He wants me to have a support group b/c he said it would be VERY hard by myself to transition. I think I'll tell him my HRT regimen...

Good plan Have you tired to find any other TS's that are around your age? I think having someone local
to talk to would help a lot. Maybe your therapist could set you up with someone?

Amanda