I'm in two minds about whether or not to see a different therapist. I find him really hard to talk to and have doubts as to his view on TS. On the other hand i need surgery letters and there aren't many gender specialists near to me who have a phd or are psychiatrists which is required for my surgeon.
He is an 'experienced' gender therapist, but i don't feel particularly comfortable with him. The first session we had (last year) he only seemed interested in whether my parents wanted a girl, and how often i masturbated. He's never once asked about how I feel and just seems interested in whether i tick all his right boxes to be diagnosed as TS.
And maybe I am being too sensitive, and i'm sure he's not trying to be mean, but i was almost in tears after my first session with him. It wasn't so much him saying that i needed to see a speech therapist, but the way he just said it so abruptly, like dismissive of all my efforts to present as female. Like I know my voice isn't perfect and i should see a speech therapist but i'm sure theres a better way of saying that to somebody than via a list of all their flaws.
And i had my second session with him a couple of months ago (i see him every 4 months) and he was asking about whether i'd applied to university in my new name. he knows that i changed my name legally a year ago, and went fulltime before then and he knows that i've told my current university everything, so i don't get why he feels the need to ask?
And he seemed surprised when i looked confused at him referring to me as not being female (he corrected himself to me not being biologically female). I mean i am aware that there are differences between me and cisgender females, but i just got the impression from him that he sees us as our birth sex. Maybe i'm wrong and being overly sensitive
And um... this wasn't meant to turn into a rant, more a wonderment as to whether i should just stick with him, get my letters and go, or to switch even if that'd involve more hassle
