Totally failed? At what, luv? Not telling the people you love and who stress you out that "O, btw, I'm finding myself and I'm going to change my sex to finally be who I am instead of what you've thought I was!"
Hmmm, perfectly understandable that you decided not to do so. Hardly a failure. You discovered another thing about yourself: that you couldn't face yet another bout with being dismissed.
It's true of us all, luv. We all come to places in this transition-thang that we would rather avoid, at least for awhile.
But that doesn't make any of us failures. It simply means that we have found a place where our limits are drawn just this side of what we want them to be, for now.
Are we failures because some of us don't reach the point of transitioning by the time we're eighteen or twenty-eight or forty-eight? I don't find that true. We go where we can go and when we can go there.
No shame in allowing your sister to do the talking. Sounds like she's able and willing. You are fortunate to have her. Just look at the positives, Kara. You're exactly where you should be, pressing yourself to go a bit further than you've ever gone before.
When athletes do that we call it training.
When we do that we tend to call it cowardly. Ya gotta just be okay with whatever limits you have right now. You wanna go past those? Then train, girl, train.
From where I sit you've already come a very long way, turn around and look at how far, see for yourself. And the road is waiting there for the next step when you are ready to take it. It's true for us all.
And I don't believe you've gotten the traditional "welcome" as yet. So ...
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You've done so very well to now! There's a lot of inspiration in your post. Thank you.
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Nichole
